Arghhhh when the hell is it going to end? Now it's been 9 days now... And everyday is such a mess. Why my day starts with tears and ends with tears. Why do I have to pretend that I am so damn happy..and everything is alright. They just make me feel like i'm a crap and nothing else. I'm not scaring anyone over here that I'll end my life. I'm just telling you that I give up now and I can't hold on.. Now, I'm just so scared to smile.. 'cause this smile changes to tears within a while. I am just sick og crying and trying and faking a smile.