Sunday, August 24, 2014

You wake up every morning because you have to.

It's just one of those nights, 
where you just want to break down. 
You're so tired of the falls and failures.
You want to talk but feel too exhausted to speak.
You just want to sleep and never wake up. 
Maybe sleeping for 365 days straight would help, 
getting over this feeling? 
When was the last time you shared, 
something really personal with someone you trust? 
You stand still while your relations get covered, 
by a layer of dust.
Maybe the reason why you didn't share, 
the recent bad experience with people is because, 
you're afraid that they'd leave you as well. 
Maybe you're just sick of seeing everyone leave. 
Quite perceptible that it kills you. 
The anger burns you.
And your fears paralyse you.
Yet, you wake up every morning because you have to.

Monday, August 4, 2014

You know what I need? I don't know what I need. May be I need to feel good about myself again. May be I need to be felt important. And no I don't want a person who knows just my name to tell me that I'm important and I matter. I need a person who has known me for months and years to tell me so. God, I hate sounding so vulnerable and needy every now and then. I can't feel anything. I don't feel happy. I don't feel loved. I don't feel sad. I don't know what I feel. I feel so ungrateful by not feeling blessed or happy when people on twitter try to make me feel better. I will try to get over this feeling soon. I promise.