Sunday, November 28, 2010

don't read :P

My knee hurts badly T_T and its still bleeding..  Arghh.. well today ish sunday and I gotta go to school for preparing stuffs for annual sports o.o Oh yeah I am the captain of yellow house. But I have been hurt, and I don't know how the hell 'am I going to play!!? I'm not much into sports but I play dodge n' ball and Shot put!
This time we are going to have kabbbadi and kho too o.O I don't know 'bout kho.. 'cause I never played it in my life 'till now o.o And I am not in mood of playing either ^_^ Guys gonna have cricket and table tennis. We were supposed to have Football but due to some reasons and also lack of time, it's been removed from the list.
Arghh I'm so angry at her :| She doesn't trust me. She broke my cell phone (T^T) She should kill me if she doen't trust me ^_^ Arghh.. thats why I didn't want to grow up. I'm seventeen and I'm still being hit. The only thing ish, I just let it be. Now I don't cry for whole day like before. I have got IIT's form and I have been told by my mom that I won't be allowed to appear the exam if I get Bhilai or some other place as my centre! Lame ain't it? Why did they even do "meherbani" on me? For doing anything that I want, I have to listen to their blah blah!!

Komal is lame lol. Yesterday she WAS doing some work and Meraj was going somewhere :P and she was like "Meraj Sunno na!!" Ohh geez lol who the hell talks like that to their class mates?? :P
I hope everything goes well! And I know My house gonna loose :3 Just wanna enjoy :D the time with friends! Yup yup sports gonna start tomorrow :3 hehe! I don't know what Saket gonna do 'cause he hates me and I feel like he's going to do something which won't be good for our house. And may be won't even come to play!! (v__v||)

Thursday, November 25, 2010

choco's blah blah!!

"..Stealing my tears, getting over my fears,
staring at my dreams and this time no one screams.
I feel home, I feel secure,
They don't let me cry so how can I die?
Hands in hands, we walk together and
I just know we gonna stay like this forever.."

P.S. thanks for caring ^_^ my knee ish still hurting and started bleeding again o.o.. haha I was thinking 'bout yesterday haha.. it was really fun :P and I loved to see them scared specially Meraj! :O

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

3rd accident! :O

3rd accident of this year. Well last year, I used to have at least 1 accident every month so I guess it's not too bad :P !! I'm in pain right now. My knee is still bleeding v_V I haven't told this to Tunesh 'cause I know he'd be mad at me. :O And yet again it wasn't my fault. Actually after Maths tution, me, PPG, Neeraj and Meraj were going back home together. We didn't stop at our "Adda" today. The other guys were still there but we left. Me and Neeraj were ahead and Meraj and PPG were behind us.
I was going really slow since Neeraj was on his bicycle and PPG too 'cause Meraj was on cycle. But suddenly, I don't know what the heck happened but Meraj was in my way and then bam!!! CRASH!! lol :P I fell, and my favorite blue jeans was torn and my knee was bleeding. At that time I couldn't to stand. :O Neeraj helped me to stand up lol XD, and in no time other guys (Prince, Kishan, Pankaj, Manish, Manni and Praveen) rushed to where we were. Meraj was holding me o.o and was supporting me.
It was dark(no street lights).. o.o so since every wanted to see the wound and also wanted to know if I'm okay they used their bike's headlight.:P It was hurting like hell O_O And then Meraj and others kinda argued and were like "we should take her to docs." and some were saying "Geez! yup she needs a doctor!" and I was like "eehh no! I'm okay. Its not too deep." Actually I hate doctors and was scared too. and after that
Meraj said, "Hey let me drop you home"! But I was stubborn and I was saying, "Uh no it's fine. I'm okay and I can go on my own"
Meraj again: "You just sit(pointing at the seat), I'll drop you" But I won. haha. :P I was still in pain!!
We headed to my home. And it kinda looked funny. It was only me and the guys were looking like my body guards. Fun! But then only Prince came with me to my home. We both lied and told that some crazy guy tried to overtake and I fell while trying to save him and the guys beat him for this!! XD Mom medicated it. But its still hurting and bleeding.
P.S. weird o.o Me and Meraj don't really talk. o.O He never took my name! o_O

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

What I did today? o.o

Hmm nothing special.. I was up for the whole night o.o but still missed the tution 'cause I was damn tired. Reached school in time. English test was well :) I was thinking 'bout mark for the whole day. I am really worried for him. Two periods of physics are annoying. :| PPG was slapped by Tiwari sir. Actually, PPG, Ayush, Tunesh, Saket, Meraj, Pankaj, Neeraj and others decided to join two rows of desks together. :P Tiwari got mad o.o and punished them :P He made them to kneel down on the floor for 2 periods :P Though Tunesh escaped it soon :P Umm I was completing my Physics notes in first three periods :) We did chemistry practicals and it was fun XD Specially the test for Nickel o.o The test tube looked awesome o.o.. Simran's hand burned 'cause of concentrated H2SO4 , We put NH4OH on her hand XD but it was still burning o.o.. Hmmm Hindi was boring and annoying like always. We laughed a lot in Games Period haha! :P And went to Kindergarten section after ages o.o, Saket was just saying "selfish" whenever I passed by o.o !! And he came on my way twice :P lame haha! :3 I came back home and had "Palak paneer" :)) I was about to lay on my bed but before that I texted Mark.I don't remember anything after that.. I just collapsed o.O

"get a life!!"

Why do you judge people without knowing them? How can you do so? Did you ever thought 'bout their feelings. So what if the person is bisexual or Gay? So what if they dress weirdly? So what if they can't speak properly? Why does it matter to you if they are black or white? Why do we still have racial discrimination? The bisexuals and Gays are human too right? They too have right to live and enjoy and have relationship. The black race can be the most honest person and the white could be a cheater. The person wearing cheap clothes could be the rich one and the one with expensive wardrobe could be poor. The ugliest looking person could be the most amazing person in the world and the prettiest could be lame and ugly from inside. We always blame others that they are being mean to Indians. But before blaiming them, why don't you look at your own self, your people and your country? Why the heck it creeps you out if I am a non vegitarian? Why? :( Non-vegitarians are human too. Why can't you understand this? My neighbours are of same sort. They don't talk to us nicely just 'cause we are bangalis and we are non vegitarians. And recently on FB too. I feel lame. You are damn so literate and older than me but still if it still bothers you then the one who ish lame ish YOU not me! I have friends who are bisexual and I don't give a damn to what you think. Yeah I'm a non vegetarian but it doesn't mean we eat whatever that moves!! sucks!!! Just go and get a life!

don't give a damn to this title thingie!

I am so pissed off. Why do people die? :/ I'm missing harpreet again. I cried a while ago. Mark deleted his MYB account and I guess deactivated his FB account too :/ Mylor and Mark broke up and Mark just ate a lot of chocolates. My head hurts badly now. Its 2 am and I'm up writing this post, hating God and cursing. Why do they hate me? I meant by Kritika and Saket.. =/ I befriended Riya and Divya. We are sorta good friends now. On the other hand, I have even stopped looking at Saket. :/ I was studying for the whole day and late night, my bo pissed me off. I am going to stay up for the whole night and anyways, I have got tution after 3 hours so I guess I'll be studying again. :| I'm kinda mad at mom and dad too. I'm such a looser. I just can't do anythng. Its 23rd November and I haven't got the IIT form yet! Heck someone please get me a form somehow, I'll love you forever. My parents are so lame and mean, they can't even get me a form to appear IIT and they want me to be an ENGINEER awesome v.v !! Feeling really alone right now.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

"..little Princess.."

No bluffing, no playing,
'cause she has a little naive heart.
No wings, no robes,
she's still a little angel.
No beauty, no grace,
But still she's a little princess.

Can't believe that I wrote this at 2 am!!

Gah! I don't know. I am bored and tired. Hmm, I am happy but not from the bottom of my heart v__V ! Feeling alone again. Just wanna talk to some friends. I just want to go back in past and live those moments again. I wanna change something in the past. I wanna tell them that I love them. :/ I really don't like tough situations in life. Everything ish going smooth but still something doesn't seem right. Arghh.. I don't but yeah I am really scared to smile or laugh. Just want someone to hug tight. My head hurts badly. Blah school ish getting boring =/ Two periods chemistry and two periods Physics really sucks! My tests gonna start from Monday. First one ish chemistry. Blah I have to study Thermodyanamics and Nuclear chemistry. Ohh I'm going to appear IIT exam! o.o Tunesh will get me a form on monday. :3
Umm I wan't to be a fashion designer and a writer too. :) I am letting people to hurt me through their words. :| I'm so dumb! I need a friend who will atleast not make fun of me. Argh why the hell I'm missing Saket??  I hate him! I wanna learn the way of talking. Well I'm different I can't be like others. Umm, all of a sudden, I want to be in relationship. But I'm not pretty. I look so ugly, I'm short and FAT. No one's gonna love me and hell I'll die soon V____V I feel lame now.

Friday, November 19, 2010

"..blue and black..*

Dreams are the same,
New are the hopes.
For I was meant to
reborn and live again,
I have to die today.

I leave behind my,
memories and love;
and may be my,
bitter absence in
someone's life.

No matter what,
happens next in,
my life 'cause it's just,
taking me either to
heaven or hell.

The dark is scary,
and blue is weary,
I know not where,
to go; I know not,
what to do!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

"..school.."

I cried today o.o Yeah I know, not a new thing but the reasons are new :/ I cried last night too when I told Mark 'bout me. :/ At school too we were talking 'bout me.  The girls know 'bout it but I haven't told guys. Well Prince and Tunesh knows 'bout it. I guess, Prince ish angry at me.
I don't know how others are going to react 'bout this ovarian tumor/cancer thing. I was so scared in class. And then Saket messed with me!! Lame creature <.< !! I cried 'cause of him and 'cause of that ovarian cancer. But I'm glad that I fooled everyone :P No one knows that I cried. Though they knew that I was in messed up mood. Weird thing ish that Saket made me laugh O_O !!
And later, Sushma, Aastha and Simran started tickling me xD. Me and Srishti annoyed  Riya, Anubha, Sushma and Simran ! :P It was nice and boring o.o ! I told Tunesh 'bout this ovarian tumor today in tution. Ad he kinda didn't believe that. I'm sure he's gonna make fun of me.*sigh*
Saket and Ayush didn't come to tutions today and we found them in our "Adda" :P (Yeah we have our secret den lol) I didn't want to stay so I stayed away but PPG was forcing me to stay. But later Tunesh walked up to where I was standing and said "Tu jaa. mat rook yaha" I left and on my way to home, I received PPG's call saying, "Why did leave? We asked you  to stay then?". I told him that tunesh asked me to do so :) [Tunesh ish always right] so he didn't argue and later when I reached home o.o I recieved Saket's text saying, "I'm just kidding with ya, don't take it seriously"!!
Huh! What the hell does he thinks 'bout me? I'm not Divya, Anisha, Suchita or his GF Pooja!!! I just sent him a blank message! o.o The only thing he'll get by hurting me would be HATRED!!

P.S. please, don't over react ^_^ I'm not going to die now! Be normal ^_^ thanks for caring though!

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

choco's blah blah!!

"..My life, my dreams, my wish
and my chocolates.."

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

"..If I die..."

I never knew it was you,
and never thought bout my life too.
Just one smile, one touch,
and the world is mine.
You keep trying to do what you want,
I would lie if I have to for you.

So close are my dreams,
dreams are never true.
It's a false hope and false wish,
Sometimes a curse, sometimes a bliss.
Scars on my body is nothing,
but the proof that mephistopheles still exists.

My heart may weep but it won't,
matter you 'cause I don't belong to you.
My eyes need sleep;
I just feel so alone and I wish,
for some sort of venom,
suffocating my life.

Getting mesmerised in your song,
The words seem so personal,
and I am getting vexed of the world.
Sometimes like dimsea, sometimes like drifting clouds;
Trying to drink life from the lees,
and no one see that I'm feeling bad.

I made you cry, and I didn't lie,
A lie that changed my life and,
a truth messed it up.
Will you remember me, if I die?
Need nothing but just few memoirs,
A small part in your heart.

P.S. tummy hurts x__X !! just came to know that ovarian cancer/tumor ish like a silent killer!
P.P.S. yeah I have ovarian tumor/cancer. :/

You don't have to read this!! ^_^

Your best friends betrayed you and you forgave them but still they keep doing the same thing.
you have relatives who don't want you and your family to be happy and they keep doing shits to destroy your family.
You have such uncles and aunts who wants nothing but to kick you out of the school.
You have awesome friends who don't remember your birthday but you still hope that they'll wish you at 12am? But then, you find that its 1 pm and your friends haven't wished you yet and you still care to invite them for your birthday party and like lame creatures they tell you that they can't come.
You have egoistic friends for who their ego, their respect ish more important than your birthday, your tears and your feelings.
You feel alone on your birthday even when you have your friends to celebrate it?
Your bestfriend wished to die before you and God made her wish come true?
You have mean parents who don't let you to go and visit your dying friend just 'cause they think you are a 15 year old naive?
And they are so mean that they won't even let you to go at her funeral and when you are crying and missing her; they yell at you!?
You still miss your dead friend everyday and especially when a friends betrays you and do You write poems to express how much you miss her?
You have a bro who makes you feel like crap.
Your mom ever told you that you are nothing but a burden to them?
Your mom and bro calling you a bitch, a slut and ugly fattie?
Ever felt that your parent's care for you ish nothing but like some sort of slow poision killing you every minute?
Your mom still hits you and beats you with sticks and other stuffs even when you are seventeen?
You have an ex-friend who hates you so much that she wants you to cry and die
You know people across the huge oceans who wants you to be happy and when they look at your sucidal status, they stop you from dying?
Your favorite teacher tried to blame you in a false case of cheating and bluffing and conspiring against the head girl of the school.
Your mom telling you that you are friends are mean but actually they are not atleast not like them. She wont let you to give your notes to anyone and instead she would just expect from the world to help you.
Ever been told by a stupid doctor that you have stomach tumor?
But actually it's not stomach tumor but its ovarian tumor/cancer(a silent killer).
You have a lot of guy friends and you have told everything to your mom about them and their GFs but your mom still don't trust you and calls you a slut then what would you do?
Ever felt that its suffocating at home and ever felt home at school with friends?
Do you feel like dying after having the above craps in your life?

Someone does.. she's trying to be happy and make others happy. She doen't have any hopes and she thinks her life ish really miserable. She writes suicidal notes but she never wants anyone to get worried 'bout that. She has almost decided to kill herself but something hold her back. She ish just too sensitive. The world thinks she's a crazy emo kid but that's not true.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

so called trip!! o.O


We all woke up at 4:30 am for tutions. It was so dark. At tution PPG asked me to come with them to have tea in the tea stall. I nodded and he said, "YEH hui na MARDO wali baat"!!! I was like "lmao what?" xD o.O and after the tution we found that it was all foggy. o.o It was fun. Me and PPG went crazy with our scooties. xD So we went for so called "school trip". It wasn't really a trip but for us it was. Actually, Columbia institute of engineering and technologry, Raipur invited us to visit their college. We were supposed to leave at 9 am but the bus was late like an hour late O_O. We were getting bored so we did stuffs and others were tickling me! >.< Saket ish trying really hard to seek my attention. o.o Arghhhh -.-" why do I even smile at him? And why did I give him "my bottle" when he asked for water??? -.-" He asked twice and both times I gave him!! We left at 10:30 am.  Tannoo's uncle died but still she was smiling. :) We had fun. We were singing and dancing and cracking weird jokes!
Harsh, me and Neeraj
Ayush trying to be cool :P
Kishan with dairy milk >_> He's trying to make me jealous!! o.o

Ummm we reached there at 12 and it was like some seminar! o.o The fat uncle who was speaking like for an hour obviously didn't like us. >_> He insulted Saket and Kishan! v___V
Girls!! :P
Meraz, Simran and Tannoo o.o
Inside the bus!! :D


We didn't like the campus much. We were damn so hungry, We just had chips and chocolates and kurkure on the way! Most of us really didn't eat anything since morning. Around 2 pm these people took us to the canteen. And guess what was for the refreshment? It was "puri and chane ki sabzi". And they gave us only one plate for each which had 4 puris and sabzi but those puris were really small and thick. arghhh !! >.< Lame people. :/ At 3 pm, we all left :) we dropped Riya and Tanno in Arang and Saket and Lokesh somewhere and Manni at his Dhaba =] and reached home at 4 pm ^_^
Kishan, PPG and Ayush!!

We couldn't go to Humaira's birthday! V____V
Love ya sis. Just miss the way we used to be! =]
I want to hate Saket again. o.o Best friends don't talk behind your back :/ and arghh I didn't want to see his face then why the hell I smile at him and why does he looks at me?

Friday, November 12, 2010

"..my coffin.."

Misty eyes staring at with sour heart;
Won't matter me; keep tryin' tearin' it apart.
The same red heart may smile,
for a while.
in loneliness rather,
for love and care.
And in moon light my soul may cry,
and miss togetherness and sigh.

Every surface beauty attracts you,
and I'm blindly building my dreams new.
I feel like I was born to fly,
but everyone else made my life a lie.
I dance on my own rhytm,
and I feel pain 'cause I'm not numb.
And this solitary moment,
just seem pleasant.

I wished you to be here,
But I know that you aren't near.
I wait for your smile, your glance,
call it insanity but it enhance,
my bitterness more and more.
How to tell, I completely adore
you in every situation,
your one rose would be enough near my coffin.

"Holi" with "Mehendi" :P

we had children's day today in school. xD It was fun o.o ! Enjoyed a lot :D Ayush was playing guitar and everyone else were singing. xD He was in song competition and he was awesome o.o and Meraz too and Suchita and Srishti and Divya were amazing xD . We sang the same two songs for 6 hours. xP Some get annoyed of it but it was nice :P and then Ayush and other guys planned to have a "blast". xDD They were about to burn crackers in the school corridor and boys toilet but it flopped. xP They told this only to me and no one else amongst the girls were knowing 'bout it! We had mehendi competition and boys too took part in that o.o and they were no way less than girls. xD I took in mehendi competiton..i dont know bout the result but everyone liked mine o.o Divya betrayed me again >.> she didn't give me her hand and at last I made it on Rupesh's hand. :P and four other people includes three guys and a girl :P lol xD and then everyone made it on Pranay's hand :D we wrote "head boy Pranay Thite" and made flowers and a balloon and some weird looking stuffs. o.o Everyone was so damn interested in Mehendi and guys omg.. they too put that mehendi on their hand!! xD Later the guys played HOLI with MEHENDI!! :P They put mehendi on Pankaj's head. o.o Pankaj got mad and he put it on their face and later guys too put mehendi on him. xD We are going to a school trip tomorrow. o.o

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

B'day Updates! :D

Thank you everyone for birthday wishes. I love you. :D My birthday was good. As expected a lot of people didn't come but I enjoyed it. My friends played a lot of pranks with me!! o.o
1st One: Srishti and Anubha texted me saying they can't come to the party 'cause they have some work in church! I almost cried 'cause they texted me just just an hour before the party!
2nd One: I was waiting for everyone and was looking for them from the balcony(I was standing like a dumb for like an hour) but no one came! And when I was 'bout to leave Neeraj, Srishti, Anubha and Divya reached there!! I was like oh geez I hate you why did you lie!!? (haha! loved the surprise!! :D)
3rd one: Waited for half an hour more, ordered food and no one came. It was only me, my bro, Neeraj, Srishti, Divya and Anubha. We decided to cut the cake then. We did and we put icing on each other's face xD Few mins later, Prince called me.
He:shriti, I'm sorry I can't come; I had an accident and I'm going to hospital.
Me: what?? geez!!! Are u serious??
He: *screamed* aahh YEAH!! I'll talk to you later sorry and happy birthday.
Me:umm thanks. Please take care.
I told this to everyone and Neeraj thought that he was lying but I told him that he ish really in pain. His voice doesn't seem right. A few mins later Divya called him and she went out. When she came she told us that he hasn't informed anyone at home and he's going Raipur!!
Me: WHAT!!!? oh geez!! >_<
Later Kishan came and I was like don't you think you came a bit early???!!! Prince called me again. This time it seemed like he was crying.
He: Shriti.. yaar mujhe bahut dar lag rha hai yaar. Maine ghar par kisiko nahi bataya hai. Main kya karu yaar. My legs.. I can't feel them!!
Me(panicking): Prince.. kyu nahi bataya yaar tu. Please dar mat na yaar. Aisa mat bol.
He: Shriti.. I am really scared I don't know what to do! Please help me.. please do something.
I was panicking there and was 'bout to cry and everyone else were laughing at me, I was confused and I was like shut up.. please He's scared and he's crying. Then everyone was like oh yeah :P ? turn back! turn back! I turned back And guess who?? It was PRINCE!!!!!
Lol everyone in the restaurant were kinda smiling and laughing and I was hitting Prince lol XDD I almost had heart attack!!
Well the pranks doesn't end here. Yup later they ate all my chocolates and spared only 3 chocolate bars for me and a celebration too. Hmmmm those chocolates were gifted by them but they ate a lot of chocolates!! They hid my sim card lol..and I don't know when did they took the sim from my cell phone. And I was unable to make or attend any call xP
and then my bro and Neeraj took a peice of cake, put some salt and then Neeraj made me eat that salty cake!! XP And youu won't believe what neeraj gave me on my birthday! :D He gave me a car.. A TOY CAR!!!

Chocolate basket O.O

Stealing my chocolates

Icing :D

 Lol

 Me trying to kill Prince for his prank!! o.o

Salty cake!! D:
So thats it for now. mY B'DAY was full of surprises and I loved it!!! :D

Monday, November 8, 2010

"..wanna be cinderella.."

blah.. so finally my best friends wished me.  Can't believe that they forgot! >_>When someone unexpected wishes you birthday, it just feels awesome :) But when you want a special wish from a special person and you don't recieve it then it sucks!
My FB friends, I don't know them but their wishes are making my day. Sunakshi di, Alan, Shravan, Rishi, Yash, Shrijit, Girish, Mark, Xin yi, Kelvin, Raed, Deepa, Rahil and everyone is just so amazing. :)
only 10 candles lol xP

I don't know if I am an angel or not but thanks for calling so. I know, I'm  kind but I hate this thing :P Talked to Saket after a long time. Geez I guess I am giving him another chance to backstab! :| Looking forward to the party now..

awwww its so cute O.O

I hope to have fun atleast today. Arghhh.. I hate writing such a gloomy post on my birthday!! Arrrggghhh.. I really wanted something special to happen atleast once! :| I have invited some friends but I'm sure that they are not going to come!! (v_____v)

WoOoOow!! o.o I just found this yummy looking chocolate cake on google lol xD
Umm I don't know but I wanna be cinderella today! Justt once, I wanna be a princess :)
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Just once I want my dreams to come true.

Just once I want everything perfect! =]

don't get scared of this pic! o.O
It's me! :D
Do I look happy? o.o well I took this pic yesterday and messed up with colours. :P

Birthday wish: I wanna be cinderella!  =]

Happy bithday to me! o.o

Arghh.. dont know what the heck I am doing!! (=.=) Gah! see I told you people.. I just can't have one awesome day. Its my b'day now and I'm not at all excited. I was but at the very moment i'm not. I'm cursing my fate. I can't text or call anyone 'cause my cell ish being a lame! (=.=)
aLL the bakeries gonna stay closed 'cause of diwali. HECK!! I was thinking to fo for a movie tomorrow(today). Actually, I wanted to watch Golmaal 3 BUT MOM's not allowing (v__V)
Ohh well thanks for the early birthday wishes :P (though most of you thought that you forgot to wish me and something like you are late!! :P) hmmm my head hurts! :/ I'm getting bored and I'm missing keith and saket and mark and tunesh and xin yi! v.v
Thats it for now! cause my best friends haven't wished me yet.. and i have recieved birthday wishes from unexpected people. aRGHH I guess thats the reason why I am crying now! v.v

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Random-est dumb-est posht!! o.o

gah! (-__-) I feel sick again..A day before diwali, I was up for the whole night and webcammed till 6:30 am! Mom and dad doesn't know bout it.. Well I did this 'cause I was angry and the reason behind was my bro!! :| I do stuffs like that when I am angry. Well I was happy on Diwali (epic!!) And you know what? You just can't  stop thinking bout the one who keeps praising you! o.o I was up again til 3am (I miss school!! D:).
So today ish Tannoo's Birthday! :D and I kinda didn't reply to any diwali wishes! blah I don't know why but I don't like my cellphone. Just wanna stay alone! and I don't know what to do with Saket. =? I don't want mean friends. I have deleted his no.'s!! He still texts.. Whatsoever!! Let him do, I just don't wanna talk to him! (V__v)
*Jumps off a cliff*
I'll turn 17 soon! v.v No more bitter sweet sixteen then. Arghh I am hungry now. o.o BTW Myyearbook ish being weird now! It has too many fakes and creepers! (v__V) I have blocked some 20 guys!! O.O  I don't know what am I going to do on b'day!!

Friday, November 5, 2010

My existence!!

My heart is still,
drenched in darkness;
when the whole town's been
illuminated,
Tears too are
glittering in my eyes,
Hopes have shattered long ago,
Faith in God has gone,
somewhere; I don't,
Know where am I ?
Now these situations have ,
somehow started questioning,
 my existence!

P.S. wrote this last night! ^_^ sorry and Happy diwali!! (^^,)

Thursday, November 4, 2010

"..don't wanna.."

I don't wanna die now,
but still I want to disappear;
Sometimes, I wish  to be invisible,
away from everyone's vision,
and just like that, escaping out ,
from everyone's thought.
An illusion and a sweet silence,
is all I ever wanted.
Pink mist hugging me tight,
and that night I danced by the moon light!
I love being lonely and quiet,
dreaming 'bout something,
that is just out of sight!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

"..I am in love.."

You, yesh you with that huge smile on your face who ish expecting teenage masala over here; I wanna say that I am NOT in love! it's just a tag!! (^o^)

:Rules:
Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, IPOD etc. on shuffle.
■For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
■YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
1. If someone asks you, “are you okay” you say:
Gal mithi mithi bol- Aisha (hahaha awesome o.o)

2. How would you describe yourself ?
Aye khuda, mujhe ko bata tu rehta kaha kya tera pata, hum to yaha pe musafir hai- Paathshala (mkay o.O)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl ?
Mujhe teri aankho ki gehraaio me dubne de-Paathshala (bingo!! I like their eyes lol xD)

4. How do you feel today ?
Woh pehli baar jab hum mile- Shaan (lol xD)

5. What is your life’s purpose ?
Fireflies- Owl City (so they are my purpose huh? o.O)

6. What’s your motto ?
 Swiming in Miami-Owl city (LMAO!! XD)

7. What do your friends think of you ?
 The saltwater room- Owl city (they think that I am a saltwater room!!??? O.o")

8. What do your parents think of you?
Tere aane se maine jaana ki tu hi jeena ka hai bahana and I don't know why but I feel good- Anjaana Anjaani (awwwww
♥ )
9. What do you think of often ?
Christmas christmas time ish near, time for toys and time for cheer- The chipmunk song (hahaha xD ♥)

10. What is 2 + 2 ?
Hips don't lie- Shakira (My maths teacher should be proud of me, huh? xP)
11. What do you think of your best friend ?
Everynight in my dreams, I see you, I feel you- Titanic (Whoaaa!! their GFs gonna kill me for this! :o)

12. What is your life story ?
Andekhi ansuni koi dastaan hai,
Lagne lagi, ab zindagi khaali hai meri
Lagne lagi har saans bhi khaali
Bin tere, bin tere, bin tere
Koi khalish hai hawayon mein bin tere
-I hate luv storys!
(Whoa!! I sound like Devdas-Paaro!! o.O)
13. What do you want to be when you grow up ?
One love for the mothers pride,
One love for the times we cried,
One love gotta stay alive... I will survive,
One love for the city streets,
One love for the hip hop beats,
Oh I do believe,
One love is all we need- Blue (hahahaha.. LOL xD)
14. What do you think when you see the person you like ?
Hello Seatle, I am a mountaineer- Owl City (I am not a mountaineer!! :o)
15. What will you dance to at your wedding 4th anniversary?
Tere liye title track- Tere liye (How romantic!! BTW did I tell you that on this track I dance every night in my dreams with Harshad chopra!!  :3)


16. What will they play at your funeral ?
all those nights we danced by the moonlight,
Conversations about nothing till midnight- Chase Coy (awww ♥)
17. What is your hobby/interest ?
Tu na jane aas paas hai khuda- Anjaana Anjaani (bleh~)
18. What is your biggest fear ?
Amplifier- Imraan khan's bewafa (Lol me and my friends call ourselves amplifiers!! :3)

19. What is your biggest secret ?
My Immortal- Evanescence (sad song it makes me cry but sometimes it stops me =o)

20. What do you want right now ?
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend- Jason Mraz (This tag ish so weird.. why love again and that too with my best friend?? :o)
21. What do you think of your friends?
 Will you be the one to make my dreams come true if I open up my heart to you- Amanda (*sigh* v.v)

22. When you want to rush to the toilet, what do you think ?
Pee loon- Once upon a time in Mumbai (ewwwww O.O)
23. Person you hate the most is in front of you, what will you tell the person ?
Tum jo aaye Zindagi mein baat ban gayi- Once upon a time in Mumbai (geez o.O no I won't )
24. You have just won a lottery. What will you sing ?
Jab mila tu ru tu- I hate luv storys ( hahaha..now that's nice! :P)
25. What will you post this as?
I am in love- Once upon a time in Mumbai (Nooo >.< I'm not in love duh!?)

P.S. I am tagging.. Ayu, Leo, Neeha, Neeya, Sulagna di, AartiSuruchi, Warm Sunshine(Mehreen), Madhu, Sumit Sarkar, Anurag, Kuhu, Deepa, Bibhash, Sourav and Priyanka!! ^_^