Thursday, December 31, 2009

Flash back 2009

I've found this piece on Shravan's and Leo's blog. Thought to do it.. so here it is..

1.What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
A..Hmm.. I did many things like I wrote poems for the first time, I have started my own blog, I have shared my secrets to unknown people and I went to the movie theatre for the first time in my life! and didn't tie Rakhi to my classmates(boys) ;p

2.Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
A..Naah.. I have never kept new year resolutions, so, 'am thinking to have one this time that is "I am not going to trust Safedi ki Chamkar". She is so mean and selfish. I hate her!

3.How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
A..Texting or sleeping or watching TV

4.Did anyone close to you die?
A..Yeah.. My bestest friend Harpreet. I was really close to her. She used to wish for me during my Maths exams and they actually came true. She had encouraged me in everything. She was lucky charm. she was my soul sister. She had always fought for me. And the second person is Thamma ( my grand mom). She died some 12 days ago.

5.What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
A..I want to be on the top again in Maths. Hmm.. read more and more books. Improve my writing skills. And gain an optimistic nature

6.What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
A..28th of March cause on this all my wishes for that time came true. 16th august cause my uncle and aunt came from kolkata and 19th August cause I missed (my best buddy)Tunnu's birthday and I came to know about a cyst in my ovary. On 31st August Harpreet got burned. On 1st September we came to know about her and On 2nd September we decided to visit her but I did not visit her cause my parents didn't want me to go cause of that cyst. 18th September 'cause Harpreet died on that day.

7.What was your biggest achievement of the year?
A..Having my own blog and writting poems!

8.What was your biggest failure?
A..Hmm.. scoring low in Maths!

9.Did you suffer illness or injury?
A..Yeah.. Fever.. and then body ache in the begining of new academic session. After that cyst in  the ovary.. stomach ache and some 2 hrs before I fought with my bro and the proof is the cut just above my... left eyebrow! 

10.What was the best thing you bought?
A..Totu my pet parrot. I love him alot..

11.Where did most of your money go?
A..Airtel recharge coupons!

12.What song will always remind you of 2009?
A..Harpreet's favorite songs specially "Teri ore"

13.What do you wish you'd done more of?
A..Concentrated more on Maths!

14.What do you wish you'd done less of?
A..Browsing the Net!

15.Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
A..Yeah.. I hate many people.. I hate some of mine so called relatives. I hate Safedi ki chamkar. I hate T sir. I hate those boys ( line maru types) in my class. I hate Kriti and Komz. I hate all the arang fellows.

16.What was the best book you read?
A..Trust Me by Rajashree.
17.What was your favorite film of this year?
A..Hary Porter and the half blood Prince and Ajab Prem ki Gazab Kahani.

18.What did you do on your birthday?
A..Didn't cry, Missed Harpreet cause I celebrated the previous one with her, Celebrated my birthday with unexpected friends that too in a restaurant, received lots of phone calls and msgs, was shocked to see everyone with me and felt a bit bad cause Tunnu left the party. And then an unexpected phone call from Angel wishing me birthday on Prince's cell.

19.what kept you sane?
A..Memories, Friends, My family and food that Mom cooked.

20.What did you miss?
A..Harpreet, My first crush, last year's students those who were in 12th.

21.Who was the best new person you met?
A..I have met many like Sree di, Fari di, King bhaiya, Jin baba in Dance India Dance site. And then Aastha in my class. she is so damn sweet( we are planning to make dostana 2 :p)

22.Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009?
A..Death never waits for anyone. You cannot trust anyone. Follow the rule"Move On"

23. What else happened this year?
A..I have been recieving unknown phone calls, missed calls, msgs and then offline msgs. Chimni(my friend) has changed. I am the new class monitor ;) and 'am feeling so lonely.
I wished Tanmay and Avinash ( my seniors) luck during sports(actually a couple of years ago I had a fight with them). I talked to Tanmay for the first time that to only because of sports and because he was in blue house. And he was worried for me, he wanted me to play in Dodge n'ball team cause I was also in blue house. I was really overwhelmed..aww...and Blue house won...yay!!

Happy New year Everyone!

Award for All!

Do you know I have been awarded! yeah.. Pankhuri awarded me :)).. Thank you Pankhuri.
Now I would like give this award to everyone as a New Year present..

Yes this one is for everyone :)) You guys really helped me in my blog with your love, support, criticism and suggestion through comments.. Am really glad to have you all here. I have shared my joys and sorrows with you guys. You guys encouraged to write. I have discovered myself. Your comments brings a smile on my face :). Love you alot guys..( not you spammers ;p). Kindly accept this award :)
Happy New Year Guys.. Have fun!
And spammers.. do not spam again!

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

:The Lucky Chineese Tag:

Do you know I am having an interesting tag which is known as The lucky chineese tag. Thank you Leo for tagging me. So this is my last tag for the year 2009. I hope this tag bring me some luck..!

8 TV shows I like to watch:
1. MTV Roadies
2. MTV Stripped
3. MTV Splitsvilla
4. Suite life of Zack and Cody
5. Jonas
6. Dance India Dance
7. Saregamapa li'l champs
8. Saregamapa challenge

8 favorite place to eat and drink:
1. Madrasi Grills
2. Girnar restaurant
3. Annpurna Restaurant
4. Manju Mamta
5. Sukhsagar
6. Chowpati
7. Paal's place
8. Raju Restaurant

8 things I look forward to:
1. Increase height
2. Improve my english
3. beat Simmi (my class mate cause she always stand first and me second)
4. Loose weight
5. write few more poems
6. have a comeback in my subject Maths
7. be a optimist
8. be a famous blogger (;p)

8 Things that happened yesterday:
1. I cried last night
2. Didn't comment on many blogs
3. I regreted for being a girl
4. I saw my friends after a HUGE week!
5. I saw him(my first crush)
6. I met srish(my friend)
7. I felt a bit embarassment cause I don't go anywhere without my MOM!
8. I wrote another sad poem (song)!

8 Things I love about winter:
1. Sweaters and jackets
2. Foggy weather
3. Pakode
4. Spicy food
5. Tutions at 6 am
6. Shivering
7. Sleeping
8. Blankets!

8 things on my whishlist:
1. Samsung corby
2. Guitar
3. good health for my family
4. I wanna be tall
5. loose weight
6. Slap Safedi ki chamkar
7. To have a true(est) friend
8. To stand first in the class

8 things 'am passionate about:
1. Chocolates
2. Blogging
3. Music
4. Texting
5. Gifts
6. Chemistry and Physics
7. Fish and chicken
8. hanging out with friends

8 words/phrase I often use:
1. Oye hoye
2. What?!
3. Yup
4. Yaayy.. Kya baat hai!!( with an evilish smile)
5. Oyeee!
6. Cruel Selfish creature!
7. Yaar!
8. huh??

8 things I learnt fom the past:
1. Death never waits for anyone.
2. My life is going to be same forever.
3. I cannot find a true friend.
4. Everyone is selfish.
5. Do not believe Safedi ki chamkar.
6. I have to follow the rule "Move on".
7. No one's going to stay for Me.
8. Memories are really precious.

8 places I would love to go/visit/see:
1. Delhi
2. Hydrabad
3. Kolkata
4. London
5. Sydney
6. Dubai
7. U.S.A.
8. Beijing

8 things I currently want/need:
1. I want a new cellphone
2. I want to sleep seriously 'am really tired.
3. I want to share my feelings.
4. I want to slap Safedi ki chamkar
5. I want to meet my friends
6. I want to cry
7. I want to see him
8. I need a zandu balm!

Finally 8 people I want to tag:
1. Sorcerer
2. Mahesh bhaiya
3. Sulagna di
4. Sunakshi di
5. Sankoo baba
6. Pankhuri
7. Hary
8. Rishi

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

"Break my heart"

Break my heart,
Name it an art,
Make me cry,
Leave me alone,
Stay apart,

Break my heart,
Name it an art,
Take my life,
Whack me out,

Break my heart,
Name it an art..
I don't wanna live anymore,
Cause you don't trust,
Cause you don't love,
Cause you pretend

Break my heart,
Life's terrible,
Something is missin',
May that's you,

Break My heart
Name it an art
I promise
I won't say a word
Break My heart

Monday, December 28, 2009

"This is me"

Have been kinda girl,
that hid the real face.
With a fake smile in heart,
I lived my part.

So afraid to tell the world,
that I've got to say.
The dreams peeps now,
Right inside of me.

Do you know how,
Its feels so in the dark?
Eyes dreams of life,
Where you have all the spark.

But dreams are like,
Tides of the sea.
If you try to hold,
It won't stop for you.

It seems that the ,
dream is far away.
I have to believe in myself,
It's the only way.

This is true,
That's what I am.
I would find a place,
Where I am the shining star.

This is me.
Now i've found,
who I am.
No more hiding from anyone.

This is me..

Sunday, December 27, 2009

"More Random"

Betrayed soul smiles ,
Ruined heart doesn't cry,
Eyes doesn't glitter,
Loneliness never matters,
Fear grew in dark,
Where there's no spark,
Havoc lies in hand,
Life's gonna be same,
Till the end..

"OuT BursT"

I am not happy at all! I hate holidays!I am mising my friends.I just want to shout at someone. We had planned something about these holidays that to ruined!

Everyone went out of station and 'am just sitting in the room and doing nothing. Tunnu, Kam and Nee are not replying to any of the text! I just want to kill Safedi ki chamkar, the most selfish creature in the world. What does she thinks she is? I hate her! During the exams, she asked me help! (obviously cheating) and I did that just to think that she is my pal! But the cruel,selfish creature never told me a single one.
In the exam hall, during the maths exam, she lied that she's going to fail and after coming out, she said these words to Nee"This was the easiest exam I've appeared"!!! Lier!!I hate u! Tragedy Queen, she is selfish too and that boy who was copying my answers but the teacher smacked my head!He didn't even say sorry! I can't understand why the girls are falling for him! I hate all the Arang fellows (group of few students who comes from a small place to our school)
Next day onwards, I didn't tell her any answer! She used me and she always does that. And like a fool I always helped her! Hey this can be my new year resolution,  'am not going to take it any more !
Just a single question hopped in my mind.Why does God always give me such mates in my life to make it terrible? sigh!

Just wondering what she would get by doing all these stuffs to me! Earlier she used to say blah blah about me for having cantact no. of boys (our mates)! And she used to say blah blah blah about the boys too who are my friends!And few days ago she asked me Tunnu and Kam 's (my best buddies) no.! Oh something again struck my mind. After that day Kam and Tunnu are not replying to my text!
Did she say anything to them as she always does this stuff?Naah! They know how she is? They are my true buddies. They are not going to fall for her words!

Chimni has gone mad I guess! How can he fall for Tragedy queen!? And how can he be jealous of Tunnu, Nee and Angel? Tunnu and others are right he has changed. I want to kill him too cause he thinks there something between Me and Angel or Me and lame!
School is soon going to reopen by 2nd Jan. which means results of Maths exam! I am 200% sure that am going to fail this time. I have never failed in any of the tests or exams before. But this time I am going to fail. T sir is going to insult me very badly. He never misses any chance to insult me!
Last year when I got 75 out of 100 in the halfyearly exams, he had insulted me and said blah blah ! And when I got 93 in Model exam and others didn't even cross 65 He said nothing to any of them!Isn't that lame? If you are in 10th then Model exams are more important than Halfyearly!
I am really scared. I don't know what's going to happen with me? What he's gonna do this time? I never failed in any subject man!Now am feeling like to cry. I know I can't escape this. I want to die. I am feeling terrible. I hate everyone. I hate myself. He's gonna kill me.That's what my life is all about.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

"death that is to come.."

Walking towards the long horizon,
To find a new place;
Where one is happy,
In being alone.

Life seems terrible,
With all the pleasures;
Falling in darkness,
Disappered in crowd;

Truth cries in despair,
Living the Nightmare, every moment;
Lost smile peeping seldomly,
Shutting the doors for joy;

Heart sinkin' in Memoirs,
Tired eyes Starin' the haunted one;
The brave soul is not scared of,
the death that is to come..

Friday, December 25, 2009


Hey Everyone!! Guess what?? I won an award and also have been tagged. This time it is from shravan :)
Thank you shravan! I am really glad. Now here comes tag no.1. it is same as the previous one. I have to tell 7 things about me which are unknown to other bloggers. So here I go..
Tag 1
1. I am not the only child to my parents. I have a younger brother. Actually we were three but the youngest one died of brain tumor when he was only of four months :(
2. I really love being pampered (phew! I spelled it right)
3. I never went out of Chhattisgarh!! Since my birth I never got a chance to go to a different place other than the places of chhattisgarh(I didn't even travelled in train)
4. I really hate people who abuse; so my pals never abuse when I am with them. :)
5. I have started liking Emo stuffs!! Don't know why!?
6. According to my pals, I am extremely innocent and they say that the outer world would kill me.
7. I hate socialising. Seriously, I am not at all interested in meeting new people; not even my relatives!

According to the rules,Mine is over.. now its your turn so 'am passing it to-
Vittaldas prabhu
Sankoo baba
Krazyy komplex kitten

Tag 2
1. What is your current obsession? Chemistry and Chocolates!

2. What are you wearing today? a green top and blue capry.
3. What’s for dinner? its Potatoes !!!
4. What’s the last thing you bought? Airtel recharge voucher!!
5. What are you listening to right now? I gotta find you by jonas brothers
6. What do you think about the person who tagged you? well the person's Shravan.....He's really nice and talented :)
7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be? Raipur, Chhattisgarh!
8. What are your must-have pieces for summer? AC !!!
9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go? Kolkata, Mumbai, Delhi, Malaysia, Switzerland !!!!!!
10. Which language do you want to learn? Bengali, French, Spanish!!.
11. What’s your favorite quote? No special ones!
12. Who do you want to meet right now? Pishi, Kaku, Kaki Ma, Tamma, Chayan da and Chaitanya da and Rumpa bodi..
13. What is your favorite color? Black, Blue, Purple and green.
14. Give us 3 styling tips that works for you:Eat Chocolates! Chocolates! and Chocolates!
15. What is your dream job? A Fashion designer or an Engineer
16. What’s your favorite magazine? My school and class magzine!!!!
17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on? Hmmm.. I would save it for a guitar
18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas? wearing eye-catchy yet simply dresses....
19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon? hmmmm....Amitabh Bachchan
20. What kind of haircut do you prefer? Long Hair
21. What are you going to do after this?  browse the net or text my pals or sleep!!
22. What are your favourite movies? It's there in my profile!
23. What inspires you? My Friends
24. What does your friends call you most commonly?Machali, lovely,shri, siya, without license...
25. Would you prefer coffee or tea? coffee
26. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed? I'll cry and scribble something Or write I hate you in my desk Or listen to music and stare the road...
27. What makes you go wild? Speed and height!
28. Which other blogs do you love visiting?The blogs which I follow..
29. Favorite Dessert/Sweet? Ice-Creams, Chocolates
30.How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?Dashboard, My blog and shravan's blog!
31. Favorite Season? Winter...
32. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me? Whatever you like..
33. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you? Ignore Them!
34. What are you afraid of the most? Drowning, height, insects including dragon flies and butterflies!
35. What's the first you do once you have booted the system? Nothing cause my younger bro does that ;p
36. What brings you smile on your face instantly? Many things! 

Rules for those who are tagged:
Respond and rework – answer these questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own, and add one more question to the list. Then tag eight or ten other new set of people
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  • Sorcerer
  • Ravi
  • Riddhi
  • Vidya
  • Sankoo baba

"Unspoken Christmas tale"

She was in 8th standard and he was in 10th standard.She was cute and had a sweet smile and curly hairs and beautiful eyes. He was tall and used to get dimples whenever he smiled. He was really kind hearted. The day when they saw each other, they felt something but they didn't say anything. As the time passed, there feelings for each other also grew. They never talked to each other neither they told this to anyone. 
Their eyes talked whenever it met. Within few moments their eyes shared many things. Most of the times as he looked her, she looked down to shy. They never accepted the fact that they really love each other.
Coincidently they met in many places but they never talked.. they both either looked into each other's eyes or else pretended to be strangers. They always tried to find each others face in the crowd.
When she was in 9th and he in 11th, They had a fancy faire in their school where they got a chance to work together with a group. There too they helped each other secretly. They tried to talk but some strange Reasons always stopped them.
On the same day, He found her crying in one of the classroom as he and his pals were checking the rooms. He didn't want to get inside the room 'cause his friends were with him but he did. He asked one of his pal to  inform her friends about it. Her friends went hurriedly towards the room to meet her.
She had red marks on her face and hands and was scared.. She didn't even look at anyone.He asked her"Who did this to you?" She yelled "I am fed up!! I am really tired.. I..I can't.. tolerate this anymore.. He asked again "What happened?" She replied in a shaky tone"They want me to be with them..they would throw me out of the school  if I don't do what they are asking me to do?"
He and her friends asked in reckless anger"Who are they? tell us their names.." She looked in his eyes and said"They are your mates!" He grew more reckless and asked her friends to stay with her and then he went to his class where his mates were proudly celebrating on their deeds.He just smacked them and told this to the authorities.
After these incident they became close friends. They still loved each other but didn't accept.Their friends asked both of them to speak out their feelings but they didn't.
By the time they realised their feelings, it was too late. Now he had to leave the school and place coz he had completed his 10+2 and his dad had been transferred to a new place. And may be he would never come back..
But He came.. he came back for her..It was Christmas eve; She was standing near the sea shore and was staring the choppy sea. He came closer but she didn't realise. He whispered in her ear" Merry Christmas".She turned back and hugged him. She was crying. He asked"Hey! What happened?" She answered"I really love you". "I love you too" he said and took her in his arms.They both walked along the shore and chatted whole night.
They both were knowing that He has to leave for home but this time they both were happy 'cause now they both would be together forever.

[P.S. Just tried to write  a fiction..Do comment on this and really sorry for the pathetic english ;) Oh damn! it's not good! sorry!  :( anyways Merry Christmas everyone(^_^)]

Thursday, December 24, 2009

"Broken heart"

Betrayed by fate,
Ruined long ago,
Only left to,
Keep those,
Enchanting and,
Nostalgic memories that,

Every moment,
And adds more,
Till life comes to an end.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

"He came.."

He was badly hurt,
When he saw her shattered.
His soul cried,
When she was alone.

He grew reckless,
When she was hurt.

He stayed in pain,
When she cried.
He came in her life,
To make her smile.
He came in her life,
To steal all her sorrows.
He came in her life,
To protect her from the demon.
He came in her life,
To teach her the living grace.
He came in her life,
'Cause he loves her a lot..

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

No one knows..

No one knows,
Life is waitng for her,
But she wants to stay in despair;
No one knows,
Her soul wants to cry,
When she smiles;
No one knows,
Her eyes glitter,
When she is sad;
No one knows,
She shares her uniqueness,
And Has shattered soul;
No one knows,
She finds pleasures,
In betrayal;
No one knows,
Her tears says everything,
And her silence is golden speech;
No one knows,
Her heart is broken;
No one..