Monday, September 13, 2010

i want to die!!

Why is it happening to me?
Did I do something wrong?
Why are they cursing me now?
I was not even involved in that thingiie. I was knowing this is gonna happen thats why I asked them not to do that. My whole school thinks that I did that with some intension. But seriously I didn't want to hurt her or anyone. Why did they make me apart of it.? Why are they blaming me?
Sophia ma'am says that the whole school staff thinks that it was done by me, I have edited that video and removed those scenes in which kritika was.
But trust me I haven't done anything. The cameraman didn't captured her. So how was that my fault. That's why I didnt want to attend teachers' day. And why did she take my name?
My class mates and friends are with me (I hope) cause they told me that they are but 'am scared.. that they are going to backstab me. I dont want any kind of dispute or fight. But just cause of kritika whole school thinks I have done that. Geeez she is even including my mum's name it that my mum is trying to call and threaten her. I just feel like dying and what's the use of life huh?
Sophia ma'am has studied psychology and she told me that whatever happened with kritika was not good and it was kind of emotional torture but what bout those stuffs that she and her classmates did with me? I have been tortured since last one month.
I haven't eaten anything till now, I am crying cause I am unable to hold my tears.. am really trying hard.. and my head is hurting, I am feel pukey... umm Idk I am feeling so alone.. may be I'll talk to tanu or just go and sleep!!! I want to die seriously..

7 comments:

Selenium said...

Having a tough time being dragged in politics??

Just keep your cool. In this game of mind, you loose the moment you loose your cool. So don't loose your cool. If you want to get even, then you have to think back and talk out some information out of your peers and then process the information to understand what really happened.

Either that or - just keep you cool and stay put... move only to escape a blame. If you aren't there at the crime scene, you won't be a suspect right?

And finally, I'd like to say that girls indeed have a rougher time in politics. We boys even things up by fighting or killing... :D

Randeep said...

What happened dear?

Audrey said...

I hope things work out for you!

Anoop said...

no one else want u to die choco... see there r hard phases in life.. its not always smooth.. ur problems will b solved soon... don think anythin stupid kkkkk... hmmm b smart.. :D

night is dark before the dawn.. :D so cheer up... :)

Unknown said...

Oh come on.Dont get worked up dear.things will settle down..Am sure ull find ur way out..

hugs.

Jidhu Jose said...

what happened dear?
Did u eat any chocolate?

wisewit said...

I can't promise you that things will end up all right--they didn't always for me, but I survived and came out better in the end. Just try to hang on, and, when you make it through, you'll know you're both tougher and more grown up than all the others.

Remember, the mature person is not the one who doesn't cry, but the one who can pick herself up and get past the troubles other people send her.

wisewit