Wednesday, January 2, 2013

The girl I used to be 11 years back.


Just once, make me feel like the girl I used to be 11 years back,
Bring back the good feeling and vanish the bad ones.
I know it's too much to ask,
But I just want this war inside my head to end.
I don't want to fake the smile anymore,
Rather I want it to rise from the core.
I don't know how to appreciate life,
I don't know how to love myself right.
None of your words make sense to me,
It's obvious that you can't see what I see.

I'm still looking for a place to hide, a hand to grab,
A shoulder to cry and a face to trust.
Stop questioning my words,
Just make me feel like the girl I used to be 11 years back,
I was terribly happy not being aware of any ache.
No lie, no pain, no insecurity was part of it.
Darkness and shadows remained as the biggest fears 'till the room was lit.
Bruises were the only thing that used to hurt,
No feeling of being unloved and absurd.
No pressure of taking chances,
'cause mum and dad would always make a stand.

Hold my hand, buy me candy floss,
Take me to the park, take me to the swings,
Sit down on the green grass and adore everything I see.
Look at the tall trees and birdies,
Wave good bye to the planes,
And run after it till it goes out of sight.
Take me home when I get tired,
 Just make me feel like the girl I used to be 11 years back.

1 comment:

adreamygal said...

We yearn so much for old time to come back na? I pray that you get to see better times ahead, with all smiles and no heartaches, so that one day you say I am glad i grew by 11 more years :) Hugs :)