you will cry..

Laugh at me if you want,

Sing with me and dance;

Lets play kiddishly once again,

Come play with me in the rain,

Hug me tight as much as you can..

My hand in yours and yours in mine,

and walk along the sea shores..

Pink mist whispers in the dark-

your smiles add the spark..

The moon is melting,

and the stars are weeping..

You could never know why?

It's 'cause when I'll die, you will cry..

P.S sorrryyy.. I'm sick.. have fever.. busy with school stuff.. Missing you all..

a voice whispered..

Randomness follows your heart,

Cries in loneliness;

and the secret

lies in eyes..

Whimpering soul dies in despair,

You know you can

never escape

nightmares..

You will face this all alone but;

A song I may sing to

make the darkness

 sleep..

Come to me and I will tell you

'bout the secrets of 

the shooting stars

and pale moon..

Eyes stares at the dawn and

may be looks for a

Campanion but

finds no one..
Shattered soul have to walk all alone
Dreams aren't enough
to overcome
fears..

"I am mean?"

I don't want anyone to die

'Cause I am mean

You know how?

It makes me gloomy;

and I don't want to be so now..

I want to help the poor souls.

You know why?

'cause I am mean;

I get satisfaction..

I want you to be happy.

no! I am not nice;

I am mean 'cause

it makes me smile..

I want peace all around the world,

You know why?

No, not for anyone but for me;

I am mean and

I hate wars..

I wanna befriend you.

Not 'cause you are nice

But 'cause I am mean;

I want someone nice like you,

around me all the time..

I care for you.

You know why?

'cause if anything happens to you

then t'would hurt me somehow!!

and yes I am mean

I am just another

meanie person in this

mean world of the creator..

P.S. random stuffs.. I don't know what to call it.. Is it dumb? o.o" let me know

*huggy*

Where do I stand?

In the world of disguise,

I stay in a nightmare so worse;

All the lies in my eyes,

Stares at the darkness and lonliness,

Living a life of misery,

Walking alone in a crowd of thousands;

Embrace alone the bitter silence,

With companions but still so alone;

Death whispered in my ears,

Couldn't hold up so,

I yelled at my fears,

I am lost in my own little world;

Silence is no worse than words;

Fake smile sighs somewhere,

Tears roll down and dies there;

A question still bothers me in despair,

So many to hold my hand,

but seriously..

Where do I stand?

P.S. a bit sad.. but idk why? -.-" Laughed really hard at school xD Prince got his hand fractured again I guess! -.-" dumbo!! <.< blaaah.. I was chasing him but he just slipped when he was running!! I din't even touch him!!

P.P.S Why do we all become so mean sometimes? =? anyways I'll try to check your blogs soon! :) *hugs tight*

and it goes on..

Heyaaa ppl! umm still busy with school.. I really don't even get time for me! Everyday.. I  wake up at 4:45 am for tution.. *shivers on the way*wishes to see.. Tune-ish, Devil or P.G. =] Prays to God that Divi should not come to tution.. but you find she's already there!! At tution..

Plans to sit with Devil, Tunesh and P.G.!! but damn! :| I come back home at 6:30 am, take shower and again rush to school!! <.< On the way.. I just keep wondering how's today going to be!? I start singing (well i try to) the saltwater room on the way (Mark's voice still in my head)!.. Reach school with a confused mind..and just wish that Safedi ki chamkar and Tragedy queen should not come to school!! But damn! they are present.

*Makes more wishes* Tiwari sir should not come to school! blaah guess what?.. he is present too! >.< Sir takes the attendance and then we all move out of the classroom for assembly... tick tock tick tock tick tock.. damn too hot.. Its rainy season then why no rain? :( not even winds are blowing!! >.< I find Safedi ki chamkar laughing and talking about blah blah blah!Watch our juniors moving out of the building.. and find that they are taller then us =/ and they look older too! o.o" Wish If I could be more taller! =/ now during the assembly.. we find.. kids fainting off!! :O

After a huge blah blah blah of "pappa" (our school principal v.v) we finally move in to our class! Thristy.. but mates already drank the water!!and I am left with empty bottle. >.> First period is free (yay yay yay woohoo woohoo) But a bit sleepy and headache starts killing me.. Mates look worried to see me like that.. Some ask.. "Whats wrong?" and Devil plays knock knock with my head!! o.O" and says "seems like there's nothing inside her head!!" I try to hit him or to seize him but my hands are too short!! >.> *he escapes!*

Time for Sunny's and Devil's weird stuffs! Yeah so damn weird and funny... ummm dancing like Shakira andd.. mimicry.. haha yeah.. they are super talented lol.. hey wait.. this time I made a new song lol.. (not really but I just changed the lyrics of Pappa jag jayega) We really make alot of noise.. so its.. " Volume kam kar.. "pappa" (principal) aa jayega!!" xD

And it goes on... Sometimes I feel like to punch Safedi ki chamkar and Chimni but.. I am not like them ;) So I just try to ignore them.. For the whole day we Worry about college =/ Our teachers always try to scare us!! >_< After recess, I bring another water bottle which was in my scooty..still no result.. It lasts only for half an hour..

Now tired..and bored..wanna go out and play but teachers wont allow us..Start doing weird stuffs.. crack silly jokes.. and offcourse throwing chowk pieces at each other!! :3 In this way school hour ends and then I come back home at 1:30 pm o.o and then meal.. try to sleep bt damn homework!! At 4:15 pm again..rush for tution.. which goes till 7:30 pm! *sigh*

p.s extremely sorry.. I am damn too busy with school stuffs! >__< Missing you guys.. I can't check your blogs sowwie D: I love you *hugs tight* :)

school!! 0.0"

Haha! I am so happy that school reopened (reopened on 16th june :P) I am a senior now.. but me and my classmates don't look like one.. We are dumb 16 year old kids(some are 17 already o.o).. The batches before us were mentality prepared and yeah.. they did look like seniors.. but like I said we are dumb!! xD

I don't like safedi ki chamkar... and Divi!! Me, Simmi and Sush are together again.. no new admission in our class so its just us "Oldies Goldies" ;) You know.. I enjoyed the first rain here with Tune-ish, Devil, P.G. and Nee!! :))

So as usual my friends tease me a lot.. They have started teasiing me with P.T.'s name D: and also they imitate me some time! o.o Guess what?? simmi finally came to know everything about safedi ki chamkar.. eeeehhh.. Safedi ki schamkar's new target is Tune-ish T-T Why him???? I want to punch her face!! Tune-ish is my best friend and she is creepy!!!

Devil and Poo finally broke up! :D Devil was Poo's 12th boyfriend!! o.O geeeez!! I am so damn glad that they broke up... and some are saying that even Tragedy queen and Chimni broke up!! :O And something is going on between Divi and Prince... eeeehhhhh.. Why?????? You know Chimni has became such a snob.... you can esily see his ego in everything that he does or say.. even Wany sir noticed that!! o.O"

T sir (my maths teacher who kinda dislikes me) is my class teacher.. doing quite well in maths these days.. but still hv to work more hard =/ So much fun..at school.. and yeah you know what we do if any of our friend doesn't like someone then we tease them by saying that the someone you hate is actually your best friend :P (didn't get it right?)

 Well let me explain.. I dont like Divi, Poo and Safedi ki chamkar so Devil and other friends tease me by saying that.. They are my "bestest friends" and I can't leave without them..  xD and I do the same with Devil.. I keep saying that Safedi ki chamkar and Suchchi are his "bestest friends" lol

Devil changed the lyrics of "Jab mila tu hi tu" from the movie "I hate luv story". It goes like this now: "Jab mila 2 root 2.... 2 root 2"  xD Yes he was solving maths problems at that time xD

"..still with you.."

The time when we were together,

and when you fought with my fear..

When you and I were alone,

I never missed my home..

When we laid down on the grass;

and watched the bright stars..

Embracing each other was the best part,

Never thought we would stay apart..

 I was alone in my despair and

you walked away..

Just turn back once;

I am still standing behind you..

What if I am dead?

My soul still walks with you..

P.S. cried after 10 days!! this time at school.. no nothing happened.. i am a cry baby right..? Wany sir told us a story.. sad ending.. and i started crying.. though I laughed alot too... my friends don't let me cry.. aren't they awesome? :) though they have startes teasing me with pranay's name for no reason.. (v.v)

Busy with school stuffs.. can't check your blogs... but I would try.. missing you guys.. love you *hugs tight* byee :)

"..Strange girl.."

A giggly view but something new;

Saw her smiling and may be blushing;

Was glad to see the cresent moon on her face;

May be she has got her own delightful grace;

Still she walks alone in the rain;

she cries but she never shows her pain;

Her eye twinkles like the stars;

Could easily see those scars;

She laid down on the green grass;

stretched her arms and  let the emotcions to pass;

A soul so weary weeps in dark;

Dreams again lost their spark..

She is together in lonliness;

and alone in togetherness..

P.S. sorry!! my modem was in Koma v.v Finally School reopened.. busy with studies and stuffs! I am a senior now! o.o but still me and my friends still acts like dumb XD I have to wake up at 4:50 am everyday for tutions! dead tired right now.. sorry would be away from blogland!! >_<

 Kritika's cousin killed Kritika's dad!! T_T Can't believe that people could be so mean..  27th june is kritika's birthday =? She was my best friends once but now we are not even friends but yeah i can't see her like this..