Tuesday, April 23, 2013

It's been eight days.

It's been eight days, 
Since I last spoke to him.
It's been eight days, 
Since I last smiled, 
And laughed, 
from the bottom of my heart.
It's been eight days,
Since I realized, 
I mattered to him a lot.
It's been eight days,
Since I realized, 
I affected him more than I'd thought.
It's been eight days,
Since I decided I'd  smile, 
No matter what.
It's been eight days,
Since I decided I'd keep it all to myself, 
Even if it hurts.
It's been eight days,
Since I promised I'd change,
And live for others.
It's been eight days,
Since I fought my inner demons.
But I'm tired and exhausted now,
And the demons seem to be consuming me somehow.
It's been eight days,
I'm neither cursed nor blessed,
But apparently, I'm back to the bad place from where I started.