Saturday, January 7, 2012

I don't know anyone anymore.. They all seem strangers to me. May be I am feeling a bit too alone? I don't want to be an attention seeker by posting this here. I am not okay.. It's been a month now. I can't even concentrate on my studies. I screwed all my exams. My college friends are great but they live really far(literally more than 50 miles away). My best friend lives in Croatia. I don't feel like anyone cares anymore.. Don't think that my best friend cares either.. I am just so stupid. I am crying and typing this over here.. Don't know why? I really miss people who were once with me.. Everyone.. Even the ones I met over internet.. I just feel left out. When internet is your only social life. Things doesn't seem right.. I miss Raed, Juan, Prince, Manish, Saket, Sergi, Jake, Jasmine, Neeraj, Pratish, Srishti, Anubha, Darren, John, Rob, David.. and a lot of people.. Sunakshi di, you'll get mad at me if you read this.. I am sorry.. I'm sorry, I'm hiding stuffs from everyone. I am self harming again. It's going really wrong..

6 comments:

Being Pramoda... said...

Hey sis.. be happy.. reach out ur frnds.. distance doesn't matter.. create ur own interests.. enjoy living them.. ppl stretch their hands but we shd ask for it at times.. good that u posted this here..

dont worry.. we all read u and with you.. be happy girl.. studies r imp.. concentrate.. dont let anything just like that to regret later.. !

all the best..

Sanket Kambli said...

get well soon..

more poems please..
maybe that will make you feel less lonely

P!yu said...

awww its so beautiful... soo soo beautiful.. i can relate to it, hop you can feel the same with my blog..

http://cerebralrendezvous.blogspot.com/

good to be at your chocolaty kingdom.. beautiful and transparent.. keep writing.. :) cheers

⁂ܓVållῐ ⁂ܓ☺ said...

I hope everything will be alright....this happened to me few months back....was depressed...All I could do was to wait and just pray :)

This sad phase will leave you soon :)

♫♪♥PhilO♥♪♫ said...

Aww..Come on! You used to be such a bubbly girl :) Everything will be fine! Cheer up. You're not lost. Don't be negative.. Look at the brighter side of things. And we are still here :) *hugs*

archuscribbles said...

u write good. Felt we traveled some paths similar. there might be stuffs that might vanish when you self harm at first...but time would show that it wouldn't be enough. its just a temporary action. it can never take off the pain inside. i tried hard to get rid of the marks after 10 years but it just wouldn't go and i had to get married with cut marks on my hand. mehandi did a bit of a justice...:)
write out your heart.keep blogging..evrythg will b alright....:)