"I don't know.."

I don't know how to reach the light,
When hope is out of my sight.

I don't know why I want you in my life
When all I want is to cut my wrists with a knife.

I don't know why I fall asleep and wish for a better day,
When I don't want to wake up next morning in any way.

I don't know why I push away the people who care,
When I want them to be with me right here.

I don't know why but I think I'm going insane,
When I feel like I can keep myself sane through out the pain.