Choco's blah blah.

Sometimes, when things go wrong, I do cry. I do hate myself and everything around me. But then later, I just tell myself that everything will be alright; 'cause after a hurricane, comes a rainbow. ♥

My life is going to be amazing. I am going to be truly happy. I just have to go with the flow. Nothing can ruin it. I know, I'm gonna have more terrible days but it will not last forever. Everything is temporary.

Existence

I sometimes wonder if people would cry on my absence,

'cause everyday, the past and every useless detail is choking on my existence.

"..My fate's not letting me to die..."

The past crawls like the clouds,

And, the silence screams out loud.

Too much stuffs in my head; useless;

Makes feel like I'm nothing but a mess.

Bounded by the promises that I've made

I just want these memories to fade.

I wanna stay cocooned in my sorrow

And at times, I wanna let it go.

There's no turning back but I don't know where to go.

I wish if everything could freeze,

So I would embrace it all like a cold winter breeze,

Songs make me cry and memories make me sigh,

My fate's not letting me to die.

Choco's blah blah.

I fake a smile and they think I'm rejoicing. 

I laugh and they think everything is alright.

They'll never know how I survived last night.

I've promised and I'll be trying.

No matter how worse things get, I'll be fighting.

"You have really pretty eyes and an adorable smile, you should smile more often."

Sometimes people forget that the prettiest eyes hide the darkest lies and those eyes have shed more tears than any. Same goes with the smile. The saddest person has the most amazing smile. You know when you look into certain people's eye. You'll find a weird glow. The way they glitter is just amusing sometimes. Well, at least I find it amusing but may be that's what you call "sad eyes"? I have been told that I have "sad eyes" and I have know idea what does it mean but, blah, I don't know.. You just feel like the person is sad or something has been eating them up, you know? Well, I don't really look into people's eye anymore 'cause it makes me feel like they'll know everything that I've been hiding and I'll burst into tears.  

Anyways, ta-daa! I'm still alive. Breathing, smiling, laughing, jumping, dancing and singing too.. xD Just in case you are not aware of the fact that I  am in college now. And I cleared my 1st semester. :) Looking forward to 2nd semester and stuffs. 

"..You telling me.."

You telling me that you care,

Won't make me feel loved.

You telling me "everyone is beautiful",

Won't make me pretty.

You telling me that you're moved by my words,

Won't make me feel better.

Happy Birthday Amey! :D

Haha, hi Amey.. xD Happy 19th birthday to you. I hope your days get brighter and you don't have to worry about stuffs and you get almost everything that you want.. ^_^ I really don't know what to say.. o.o You're one of the most nicest people I've ever met. I know that you don't really believe in long distance friendship or whatever but I do.. And I hope that someday you start believing in it too. I'm glad that I met you on twitter. You kinda' know a lot about me and may be I do the same. I'm glad that at least I have someone with who I can talk when I want to(well most of the times).. Umm.. this isn't much but.. this is what I can do to surprise you, I guess. LOL, distance doesn't matter, dumbo! Stay weird forever please.. Stop thinking too much. And, at least reply me on time.. xD