Secret

"..Sometimes I cry just to hear you saying,

it'll be okay.."

P.S.Haha, I'm happy today. I'm feeling cute. I sang and danced (though I am bad at both) And I laughed a lot xD. Felt like crying twice but I didn't. I'll sleep early today. I smiled. I'm enjoying. I'm thinking about stuffs. 

THATS how it looked on saturday

Yeah I know, I'm insane. I told my friends 'bout this at school (only girls though) Well I showed my hand to Prince and he went mad. And also to Tunesh but even he wanted to do the same o.O He broke his cell phone. =] Not eating properly. Skipping breakfast and lunch and sometimes dinner. I have no reply. I don't want to tell you that why I did so. When Tunesh saw my hand, he was like " Did your mom see that?" I said "nope" He again: Then what's the use of this thing?.. Hmm well I didn't do this to show her or anyone.

"..tears.."

"..It's said that tears never lie;

But when I cry they say that,
I and my tears lie..

and yes,

according to them,

the one who lies, cries.."

"I am mean?"

I don't want anyone to die

'Cause I am mean

You know how?

It makes me gloomy;

and I don't want to be so now..

I want to help the poor souls.

You know why?

'cause I am mean;

I get satisfaction..

I want you to be happy.

no! I am not nice;

I am mean 'cause

it makes me smile..

I want peace all around the world,

You know why?

No, not for anyone but for me;

I am mean and

I hate wars..

I wanna befriend you.

Not 'cause you are nice

But 'cause I am mean;

I want someone nice like you,

around me all the time..

I care for you.

You know why?

'cause if anything happens to you

then t'would hurt me somehow!!

and yes I am mean

I am just another

meanie person in this

mean world of the creator..

P.S. random stuffs.. I don't know what to call it.. Is it dumb? o.o" let me know

*huggy*

"..Just once.."

I want to be an eight year old kiddo again!

I want to sing and dance like an insane..

I want to hug someone right now;

I want to let my tears flow..

I want to be an endear,

I want to disappear;

I want to escape this place,

I want to have a delightful grace;

I want to be alone,

I want to say that my fears are gone;

I want be a muse;

I want to feel the giggling views;

I want to walk alone in lonely streets;

I want to hear my heart beats;

I want to rejoice every moment;

I want to forget the torment;

I want to know if they really care;

I want to know if I really matter;

I want to get stoned;

I want to fall in illusion;

I want to party whole night with my friends,
I want to forget that happy moments soon ends..

I want to fly to the sky,

I want to cry and die,

yes I just want to smile,

from the bottom of my heart;

I don't want that smile to fade,

even if I am dead..

P.S so damn random but yeah from the heart.. feeling sad.. want to meet Alan, Mark, Xin yi and Poxy.. want to hug them tight.. Right now feeling like to die..would be fine I guess.. Crying alot since yesterday.. want to be alone for once.. a thought popped in my mind.. what if I die.. and no one knows about the reason... want someone to regret for what they did!! ummmm.. lame? =/ haha! *hugs tight* byeee :)

Exams!!

hey guys! I am really missing blogosphere.

Few days ago I had another accident and like always it was not my fault!!! :P

My practical exams are starting from tomorrow.

I am really stressed so just thought to blog something.

First one is chemistry!

then Physics!!

and then EVS!!!

Wish me luck! I have to study now so byeeee!

Take care.

choco's blah blah!

If you are happy to see the smile on my face,

that means I succeeded in decieving you...

"Break my heart"

Break my heart,

Name it an art,

Make me cry,

Leave me alone,

Stay apart,

Break my heart,

Name it an art,

Take my life,

Whack me out,

Break my heart,

Name it an art..

I don't wanna live anymore,

Cause you don't trust,

Cause you don't love,

Cause you pretend

Break my heart,

Life's terrible,

Something is missin',

May that's you,

Break My heart

Name it an art

I promise

I won't say a word

Just..

Break My heart

"Unspoken Christmas tale"

She was in 8th standard and he was in 10th standard.She was cute and had a sweet smile and curly hairs and beautiful eyes. He was tall and used to get dimples whenever he smiled. He was really kind hearted. The day when they saw each other, they felt something but they didn't say anything. As the time passed, there feelings for each other also grew. They never talked to each other neither they told this to anyone. 

Their eyes talked whenever it met. Within few moments their eyes shared many things. Most of the times as he looked her, she looked down to shy. They never accepted the fact that they really love each other.

Coincidently they met in many places but they never talked.. they both either looked into each other's eyes or else pretended to be strangers. They always tried to find each others face in the crowd.

When she was in 9th and he in 11th, They had a fancy faire in their school where they got a chance to work together with a group. There too they helped each other secretly. They tried to talk but some strange Reasons always stopped them.
On the same day, He found her crying in one of the classroom as he and his pals were checking the rooms. He didn't want to get inside the room 'cause his friends were with him but he did. He asked one of his pal to  inform her friends about it. Her friends went hurriedly towards the room to meet her.

She had red marks on her face and hands and was scared.. She didn't even look at anyone.He asked her"Who did this to you?" She yelled "I am fed up!! I am really tired.. I..I can't.. tolerate this anymore.. He asked again "What happened?" She replied in a shaky tone"They want me to be with them..they would throw me out of the school  if I don't do what they are asking me to do?"

He and her friends asked in reckless anger"Who are they? tell us their names.." She looked in his eyes and said"They are your mates!" He grew more reckless and asked her friends to stay with her and then he went to his class where his mates were proudly celebrating on their deeds.He just smacked them and told this to the authorities.

After these incident they became close friends. They still loved each other but didn't accept.Their friends asked both of them to speak out their feelings but they didn't.

By the time they realised their feelings, it was too late. Now he had to leave the school and place coz he had completed his 10+2 and his dad had been transferred to a new place. And may be he would never come back..

But He came.. he came back for her..It was Christmas eve; She was standing near the sea shore and was staring the choppy sea. He came closer but she didn't realise. He whispered in her ear" Merry Christmas".She turned back and hugged him. She was crying. He asked"Hey! What happened?" She answered"I really love you". "I love you too" he said and took her in his arms.They both walked along the shore and chatted whole night.

They both were knowing that He has to leave for home but this time they both were happy 'cause now they both would be together forever.

[P.S. Just tried to write  a fiction..Do comment on this and really sorry for the pathetic english ;) Oh damn! it's not good! sorry!  :( anyways Merry Christmas everyone(^_^)]

Bakwas!!

May be for the world

You are

someone

But may be 

for someone

You are the world..