Last Notes!

Letter #1

Dear Mum and Dad,

I’m sorry I am dead. I’m sorry I couldn’t make you happy and proud before dying. Today when you left, I found out your son has been filming me secretly. I don’t know for how long he had been doing that. I found five videos of me sleeping, on his laptop. He may have also filmed me while I was changing my clothes. I couldn't find more videos. His laptop’s camera was on and it was facing my bed when I decided to check his laptop to see if he was spying on me again and yes he was. He has done that before too. He had taken my half naked pictures before. I wish you had done something when I told you that he used to grope me in my sleep. That happened for a year and now this. I don’t know what to do. I don't even feel like a person anymore. I just feel like a cheap sex toy. First molestation, then taking my inappropriate pictures and now secretly filming me while I sleep. The only thing that is left is finding those pictures and videos on the internet in a porn site. I know, you love your son but he makes me sick. I was thinking of forgiving him and moving on but I cannot. I cannot live in the same room with him. I deleted the videos. I think he has more of it but I can’t find them. He has given me a wound that doesn't heal and a scar that's gonna remain forever if I stayed alive. I’m sorry that this is all in English but I suck at speaking/writing Hindi. I love you both a lot. Please know that. And I’m sorry I’m being selfish but I want to bleed out right now.

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Letter #2

Dear Diyanah,

I hope you're alright babe. I hope you get enough strength to face the problems. I hope you find someone who gives you unconditional love. Someone who makes you feel beautiful. I don't have much to say. Thanks for being there for me and listening to all of my rants. I'm sorry I'm leaving. I still remember the last words that you said to me. You are beautiful and you deserve better. I want you to get better and live. I love you. 

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Letter #3

Dear Marko,

There's this huge conversation gap between us and I didn't get enough time to fix it. I actually felt tired all the time and I couldn't do that. I caused you a lot of troubles when we were closer. I hope you get to move out and live your dreams. I'm probably dead by now. Please don't do this to yourself as well, okay? It will get better. Take care of Raed and yourself of course. I love you. 

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Letter #4

Dear Tony,

I'm sorry about my messy head. I never got a chance to apologize nicely. You are a great person. You did make an impact in my life. And dude, for one last time, I need you to know that I'm not in parasocial relationship with you. I did have a crush on you but I don't even think about you anymore. More than being your lover, I wanted to be your friend. Thanks for making me feel better in my bad days. I hope you find love. Don't kill yourself. I love you.

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Letter #5

Dear Juan,

Goddammit you said you'd post a new selfie! You haven't yet. And now I'm dead. Bummer. I'm pretty sure you're a 50 year old man! :O Nah, just Kidding. I am sorry I didn't tell you a lot of things. I didn't want to scare you away I guess. Apparently, I'm one of those suicidal freaks, huh? Miss me, Juan. I love you. Fix your sleeping schedule mister! xD

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Letter #6

Dear Meraz,

Sorry. I should have told you. I don't know what greatness you see in me. I'm thankful for having a friend like you. Thanks for saving me. Thanks for being there. I don't want to saved this time. I'm ending this. I love you. I hope you have a great life. I hope you get to marry the girl you love. She's so lucky to have you. Tell her, I love her too.

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Letter #7

Dear Sunakshi di, Aditi, Adeeba, Ayushi, Laddoo and Nida,

I miss talking to you guys but I don't really come forward and talk to you because I really cannot and I don't know what to say anymore. You guys have always been there to support me. You all are such strong women. I cannot thank you all enough. I think you'd understand why I did this. I love you guys. Hope you all have great lives.

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Letter #8

Dear Minhaz,

I didn't think we'd turn into such good friends. Well I really hope you did think of me as a good friend and you weren't using me. It felt good to know that someone cared. Miss me, Minhaj. Miss me. You're an awesome person. Stay that way. I guess you and others from the class now know the reason that has kept me sad. And why I didn't care about what my brother did. Good luck for the upcoming exams. Love ya and others.

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Letter #9

Dear Sir,

You know who you are and that's why I'm not mentioning your name. I'm not sure if you'd like it or not and that's why I'm not mentioning it here. It's always been great talking to you. I love how we could talk for hours about anything and everything. From college rantings to pursuing our dreams. I never told you about my problems but you somehow managed to drift my mind and also showed me the right path. I guess I am not going to be a writer and you won't be clicking my picture since I'm ending my journey before even starting it. I have respected you a lot. You are a great person and only a few people realize that. I hope you get live your dreams. Please take care of yourself.

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Letter #10

Dear Jesse,

Ah dude, we just started talking again this is how it is ending. Damn, we couldn't even skype. I know you have a hard life too. I hope it becomes a little easier. I really don't have a lot to say. We kind of have similar views on life and other things. I'm glad to meet and know someone like you before dying. You are the last person to make me feel so happy. Thanks for that. May be we'll meet in another life and do all the things that we planned to do in this life.  BYE AMERICAN BEST FRIEND. I LOVE YOU.

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Letter #11

Dear Abhishek dada,

Uh I screwed it up huh. I have been feeling terribly since the day I called out on you on my blog. You did know what he did to me and that's when you told me that you'd be my brother and protect me. I do respect you a lot and I love you a lot. I just screw it up sometimes. I wish we talked more. You are a great brother and an amazing kind human. I hope you become super successful in life. Thanks for making me happy dada. Wish I could meet you and have the "real" and good sibling experience. And like I promised you long ago, I would have bought you a watch.

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Letter #12

Dear Raed,

Don't frown or get pissed off because I wrote your letter last. Dude, I was trying to save the best for the last. I talk to you so much and it's still not enough for me. And wish you could just see how hard it is for me. One of the saddest thing in my life is that you don't understand me or life. I don't tell people anything about my anxiety or depression and bad life and they think I overreact. I tell you everything and you think just like them. I don't take depression as an excuse for my actions but you were supposed to understand. I know you will probably think that I overreacted and exaggerated this. And suicide is a terrible excuse for what my brother did to me. But it's not just that. You are supposed to know that DAMMIT! You were supposed to give me strength rather than calling me weak and coward. I won't be troubling you anymore. Yay Shgt is dying!

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Letter #13

Dear Everyone else,

Thank you so much if you have ever made me smile or have just stayed in my life while I was going through bad phase. Thanks a lot. Thanks for being there for me and supporting me. Thanks for making me feel loved. You all are great. I hope you guys get to see happy days. Forgive me for all the lame, pathetic stuffs I did. I love you guys a lot. I really do.

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P.S. I'm alive. I'm not dead. Sorry for giving you a minor  heart attack there. I started typing this out with an intention to post it on my blog as a suicide note. I was going to kill myself. I had a good opportunity since my parents were out of town and I was alone and my brother wasn't here either. I don't regret typing it out and posting it on my blog because it just made me feel a little better and hopefully I won't die tonight. I was definitely trying to kill myself by making deeper cuts on my skin. But none of them were deep enough to bleed me out. I'm also sorry for mentioning/not mentioning your names. Please don't try to help me by asking a social worker or psychiatrist to see/read this. Things will get better. I know that. If you know me in person then don't give me "I'm sorry, Shriti" look. Also try not to ever mention this at college or to anyone who hasn't read it yet.

Congratulations Little Angel! :)

Er. Its been quite some time since I sat down to write something sincerely. I have been  missing out on that spark to write and go on writing for some time now, and then out of no where comes Shriti asking for a guest post at her blog as a part of her 400th post celebrations, and how could I say no to someone who I care for a lot ? who I love reading a lot ? I had no choice but to accept and promise her to write.

So here I am, trying to put down some lines for shriti, little angel, as I used to call her, and I am confused as to what to pen down. shri, you have been that one person who I witnessed grow up in this place, I have been around when you started writing, and now when you reach this milestone I am still around, and it indeed makes me feel privileged to have known someone so talented like you, who could put into words anything, anything, someone who could just sit and write and then give a visual of what they have written to the readers, someone who can wet the eyes of the reader.

All I have to say is, Shri, that you a gift, a very talented person, one who deserves a lot of happiness, joy, success, fun, everything damn good thing in life, and I would want you to appreciate life, no matter what hardships you have faced, and what may lie ahead. I know its always easier said, that done, but trust me, life is to be appreciated no matter what. like how its said, what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger. I would be one happy person to see you write more, a lot more of happier posts, making a difference with your life, staying strong and proving a point.

Alright that has gone boring  now, time to wind up, and here is a little something for you sweet heart, you know I normally like melancholy and write on that topic always, but a friend of mine, Nikita of Niki's Pallet wanted to attempt something different, and we sat down together to pen this down, and I guess, this blog is the place where this should be posted :)

Lift your head, shoulders high;
Face the world, and smile in joy;
Tear your mask, shed your fear.
Rebel the world, Pick your voice, 
Gain your words, describe the self.
Burn the worries, make your fuel.
Fly high to the sky, and fear for none.
Earn your respect, earn your space,
Be the one your dreamed to be.
Let the world not hold you back,
For you may fall and you may rise.
Leave the world a sign of yours,
Claim your freedom and be the self.

Be the fire and ignite the rest,
Let the world fall and burn.
Live your life to the full,
Leave a legacy beyond death,
For the new world shall follow you one day.

Here is wishing you Shriti, a happy blogging time and congratulations on reaching this small milestone of 400 posts and I hope and pray that you go on writing more and more, and more.

Love. Hugs. Shravan.

The Charming Lass

Hey Shriti,

This one is for you and a small attempt to let you know that you are a Rockstar. When I first visited your blog I was amazed to see such a young lass writing so much, such a creative background and so many widgets that you have used. I was simply impressed by the complete set up you have and I will always come back to your blog to read more when it gets updated. Here is a short poem for you on your 400 post completion celebration:

A young girl

Though gives words a twirl

Emotions expressed

Everyone impressed

A lovely brew

Flow can keep you glued

A memorable time

Sanctity divine

A way with feelings

A heart out and chimes

That way with rhyme

A bit of clandestine

To tell you more

You have to keep writing, not sour

We love you

Till we reach through the lightening door

I hope you like it and even if not I know you will keep blogging because you are deserving, loving and a beautiful soul which will impart all the love to the world. Keep Writing!

Much Love and Blessings,

Ashwin.

Rain and the Rainbow.

It started raining long time back. I'm not talking about the weather.. o.O It's about my life. Again. Sorry. o:

Everything is almost on track. Again. But, I'm a bit scared. It's not going to last. Ever heard of the "forgive and forget" thing? I don't know what I am feeling. But, I'm not able to hate certain people. My mum, my best friend, my used to be best friend and even my own brother. I haven't forgotten anything but still, they are my family..

*sigh* I'll be screwing up my exams for sure this time. I dunno. By the way, I forget why I started typing this post. I am forgetting everything. Everything is slipping away from my hand, it seems. It's like everything is going too fast and I'm not able to enjoy. It's funny, I spent 18 years of my life.. I never really had "actual" fun. Staying at home makes me sick..

Oh, yeah, I need to thank certain people, who wants to help me with the situation. It means a lot really. I mean it. I know I haven't written back to anyone yet but that's because I don't know what to do, what to say. I'm sorry. There's just too many things. At the end of the day, it's my own family, no? What will I gain? I do want to move and have a new life and live it in my own way but then again, I want to do it on my own. I really appreciate whatever you are trying to do or wanting to do. But, I still don't know. Just stay by my side? It'll the greatest thing that you can do for me. At least for now!

My exams are still on but it'll end soon. I have got a lot to say but still nothing. You people really give me strength. I feel better sometimes.. thinking about you all. I am just going with the flow. A bit stronger than before. I won't cut. I haven't cut in almost 3 months. I'll try to stay safe. c:

About the last post, I'll say it again, I don't think too much about it. But, you know, it happens everyday in my life, like, pretty looking girls (BIMBOS) of my class get all the attention, plus good marks. Yes, I said, good marks. Teachers don't even check their answers and give them full marks. Just because they have pretty face that doesn't mean they are intelligent or they know everything. I hate proving my existence again and again. That's it. You don't understand it unless you've been through the same. I don't even expect people to understand it. I am not you and you're not me.

It'll get better hopefully. The rain won't last forever. It shouldn't..

Just Saying.

Certain thoughts and feelings inside your head and heart are immortal. You try to kill them, sometimes they disappear but they always come back.

P.S. Um, I don't know what to say.  Thanks for all the love and support that you people showed through mails, facebook messages, tweets and comments.. It means a lot. I'll be strong. Thanks. I know people want to help me but I don't know. I am not ready or may be I am. I want to live my life normally. I don't want to get highlighted everywhere. I know and I remember what I had written in my previous post. "I want the world to know" but not in that way. I mean, I am not starting a fight or movement or whatever you call it. What I wanted everyone to know is that I don't over react. Crap Happens. But you have never been through my life's crap. So you need to stop judging me. That's it.

I am taking a break again. I'm not sure if I'll post again soon but oh well. Don't get scared if I didn't reply to the mails and stuffs. I have to concentrate on my studies. =)

Happy 18th Birthday to me (:

Haha, so, it's my 18th birthday..and it's going amazing so far :) I had a really good time at college. I haven't even thought that it would be so great :) I love my best friend. Hehe. He has given me the best birthday present o: And, this guy from my class, he bought me a present :P

I love my friends, family and everyone who has made it so special ^_^

Truth, secret and love (Answers of all your questions) part-2

Love's in the comments that you have written, it was love when my readers wanted me to join facebook, It's love when my one of the best-est blogger buddy, Raed keeps making me smile. I've found love in every word of the comments posted by you. Love's in my joy and my sorrow. Love's in my tears and in my fears.
Love's in going for a long drive at 6:00 AM with all my friends. Love's in the time I've spent with Tunesh, Prince, Saket, Pratish, Neeraj, Kishan, Srishti, Anubha, Divya, Ayush and all my class mates. Love's in spending 100s of bucks for samosa :P Love's in those crazy stupid fights. Love's in the memories of my school life. Love's in being scared of going to college. Love's in making new friends again at college. Love's in bunking classes ;) Love's in Kashyap sir's amazing Math class. Love is in being jealous of the butterflies of our class :P 

Love's meeting Marko for the first time over internet in a dating site at 2 am. Love's talking to him for the whole night. Love's remembering almost every part of that conversation. Love's him gaining importance in my life. Love's telling him that I could never be in love even after knowing that I feel something different for him. Love's being jealous of his best friend. Love's him trusting me. Love's me trusting him. Love's when he fell in love with someone else. Love's me letting him fall in love with that someone. Love's when I told his best friend that I probably had a crush on him.
Love's me pretending to be ok. Love's him knowing that I like him. Love's he coming to me when he broke up. Love's the time when he made me to get MSN and facebook. Love's me and him having webcam chat for the first time. Love's the first word that he had uttered after seeing me.. Love's us doing international texting. Love's when he sang me the "owlcity song(The saltwater room)" Love's declining the fact that I love him. Love's still having the song that he had sung to me. Love's adoring him. Love to me is my best friend. Love's the reason I like owlcity so much. 

Love's me being jealous and heart broken to know he's dating someone else again. Love's when he was cheated and wanted to talk to me. Love's me wasting all my phone credit to get online and cheer him up. Love's knowing that he can never be "in love" with me. Love's lying to myself that we are just best friends. Love's when I text him after being felt up by that creep. Love's him wishing that creep to die. Love's him wanting me to change my room. Love's him disliking my mum for the way she has treated me.
Love's my best friend wanting me to break up with my boyfriend just because I wasn't happy and he was treating me wrong. Love's him not listening to me because best friends never do what you ask them to do. Love's falling in love with someone who lives thousand miles away. Love's being in relationship and still missing my best friend.

Love gave me strength to bring my bestfriend back from coldness(darkness) Love brought us closer. Love tore us apart. Love's the fact that he is my only best friend. Love's the only fact that I'm his only best friend. Love's in writing poems for him(The best poem I've written till now with more than 40 comments was for him). 

Love is the fear of losing my friends. Love is not wanting to go into relationship with my friends. If I go into relationship with you. I'll lose a really good and close friend of mine. The reason why I've been saying "no" and ignoring you is this. I do love you but I cannot be in relationship with you. I know you're reading this. I really love you but as a friend not as a lover. I cannot keep you happy and you cannot keep me happy. Love is all about making each other happy! :)

Love's is an inspiration. Love's everything that I want. Love's making videos for my friends and online friends. Love's the video that I've made for him. Love can make you want to cut your wrist. Love can make you want to end your life. But, love is not a quitter. Love's hope. Love is you fighting reality, love is you fighting for everything. Love is the fact that they are trying to you and Love is you trying to save someone like you ♥ Love is hoping to meet them someday. Love doesn't know distance. Love has always been greater than distance. 

I have really amazing people in my life and I love them all. Despite the distance, Sunakshi di I love you very very much for being my best di(elder sis) ever. Shravan, Tony, Arjun, Raed, Ali, Alan, Jake, Randeep sir :P, Sergi, Hailey, Austin, Darren, Mark, Juan, Priya di, Garima di You all are really amazing..  and I love you guys.. and I'm sorry if I am missing anyone o.o.. You know that I love you :P

 

"I am a wreck.." (Blog's 2nd anniversay)

I'm a wreck,

I need to sleep,

I've been broken,

I really need to be fixed.

Been alone, 

for far too long,

Been assassinated,

for someone's malevolent.

Joy fades away,

and sorrow grabs my hand,

I'm being ripped in a tug of war,

That never seems to end.

I'm chasing nothing

But running for everything,

I need to escape this place,

I really need to find myself solace.

P.S. Hello readers, I'm sorry for not writing more often..and still not being able to read your blogs. I'm not happy but then I'm not sad either. Oh, btw, it's been 2 years in blogspot.. Yup, I've successfully completed 2 years in blogspot and gained 183 amazing followers.. Thanks for reading me and encouraging me to write more through your mails. I was 15(almost 16) when I had started this blog and now, I'm 17(almost 18).. Haha, sometimes it makes me sad that I'll be no more a little kiddo.. Thanks for telling me not to lose hope and that everything will be alright, Thanks for all your love. I truly love you each one of you.

Ting Tang Tag!! :D

Hello there~~

       So I am tagged by two people. Madhumati and Selenium :3

So yesh this post is all about me :) Thank you for the tag ^_^ I was really willing to do a tag actually so yippeee here I go!
Tag #1 
By Madhumati
*My favourites* 

Food: I love food LOL. I really can't stay without chicken and fish V_V I love spicy Indian food and chineese food. :) 

Colour: I love a lot of colours o.o.. Black, blue, white and purple are my all time favourites :)

Sports: I used to play cricket with all the guys and I used to cry and call my mom when they never used to take me in their team lol and at nights I used to play football with my dad :)

Dessert: Pastries and chocolate ice creams XD

Artist/Singer/Brand: Secondhand Serenade, Owlcity, Jarrod Matthew, NeverShoutNever and I forgot :(

Pair of shoes: I wear heels(since I am short) and also I like belly shoes and other shoes LOL! :D

Outfit: Eh you'll find me more in jeans and capries and leggings sometimes. (No one wonder why they call me tomboy!! o.o)

Accessory:  I really don't like these stuffs at all -_-" but I wear earrings, a bracelet kinda thing O.o and a locket(I am forced to were that locket and bracelet)

Fav place: Home, Cad-B and Schooool. I miss school :(

Hobbies: Writing, blogging, drawing, texting, reading. :)

Beauty product: Lip balm and eye liner and that too sometimes :P

Snacks: Maggie and Ramen :3

Movies: Don't have a favourite but I prefer watching, funny action movies and romantic ones are okay. :P
-That's it-
I am tagging:
Kelvin
Sankoo baba
Suruchi
Ayu
Selenium
Prams di

Tag #2
By Selenium

RULES:
*Each tagged person must post ten things about themselves*
*You have to choose and tag ten people*
*Go to their blogs and tell them you tagged them*
*No tags back*
*Have fun*




Ten Things About Me:

I am very random o.o
I say "I love you" to everyone LOL
I love saying "is" as "ish" and yes as "yesh"

 

I am in a long distance relationship :O
When I see any couple kissing then it creeps me out o_e 
I am 17 and I still hate talking or listening to "mature" and "vulgar" talks.(It creeps me out seriously. I even cried once when my friends where talking about it :P)

I am a slowpoke x_x
I don't get creepy messages from anyone because I never understand them!! :|

Friendship means everything to me and also love O.o
I get suicidal thoughts all the time which is not good. I have already tried to kill myself 5 times!!

And the tag goes to:
Ali
Hailey
Madhumati
Valli
Riya
YAM
Sawan
Nofairytale
Angel
Pavitra

awards!! :D

I was awarded by et really long back V_V 

Thanks et ^_^ Sorry I'm posting it now D: I was busy with school stuffs =( 

Ummm I have few awards that I would like give.

Best blog award 

goes to:

Kelvin

Sankoobaba

Sunakshi di

Pramoda di

Leo

Pria

Jingle

Anoop Kr

Shravan 

Dudo

Et 

The adorable blog award

  

goes to:

Ayu

Rabbito bonbon

Tharangini

Hailey 

WarmSunshine

Madhumathi

 Cheryl

Rajlakshmi 

Rhyth

Valli

Neeha

Last but not the least 

The Lovely blog Award 

 goes to:

All my 162 followers ^_^ You guys mean a lot to me. I have learn a lot through your blogs. :3 Thanks for being with me and guiding me. 

B'day Updates! :D

Thank you everyone for birthday wishes. I love you. :D My birthday was good. As expected a lot of people didn't come but I enjoyed it. My friends played a lot of pranks with me!! o.o

1st One: Srishti and Anubha texted me saying they can't come to the party 'cause they have some work in church! I almost cried 'cause they texted me just just an hour before the party!

2nd One: I was waiting for everyone and was looking for them from the balcony(I was standing like a dumb for like an hour) but no one came! And when I was 'bout to leave Neeraj, Srishti, Anubha and Divya reached there!! I was like oh geez I hate you why did you lie!!? (haha! loved the surprise!! :D)

3rd one: Waited for half an hour more, ordered food and no one came. It was only me, my bro, Neeraj, Srishti, Divya and Anubha. We decided to cut the cake then. We did and we put icing on each other's face xD Few mins later, Prince called me.

He:shriti, I'm sorry I can't come; I had an accident and I'm going to hospital.

Me: what?? geez!!! Are u serious??

He: *screamed* aahh YEAH!! I'll talk to you later sorry and happy birthday.

Me:umm thanks. Please take care.

I told this to everyone and Neeraj thought that he was lying but I told him that he ish really in pain. His voice doesn't seem right. A few mins later Divya called him and she went out. When she came she told us that he hasn't informed anyone at home and he's going Raipur!!

Me: WHAT!!!? oh geez!! >_<
Later Kishan came and I was like don't you think you came a bit early???!!! Prince called me again. This time it seemed like he was crying.

He: Shriti.. yaar mujhe bahut dar lag rha hai yaar. Maine ghar par kisiko nahi bataya hai. Main kya karu yaar. My legs.. I can't feel them!!

Me(panicking): Prince.. kyu nahi bataya yaar tu. Please dar mat na yaar. Aisa mat bol.

He: Shriti.. I am really scared I don't know what to do! Please help me.. please do something.

I was panicking there and was 'bout to cry and everyone else were laughing at me, I was confused and I was like shut up.. please He's scared and he's crying. Then everyone was like oh yeah :P ? turn back! turn back! I turned back And guess who?? It was PRINCE!!!!!

Lol everyone in the restaurant were kinda smiling and laughing and I was hitting Prince lol XDD I almost had heart attack!!

Well the pranks doesn't end here. Yup later they ate all my chocolates and spared only 3 chocolate bars for me and a celebration too. Hmmmm those chocolates were gifted by them but they ate a lot of chocolates!! They hid my sim card lol..and I don't know when did they took the sim from my cell phone. And I was unable to make or attend any call xP

and then my bro and Neeraj took a peice of cake, put some salt and then Neeraj made me eat that salty cake!! XP And youu won't believe what neeraj gave me on my birthday! :D He gave me a car.. A TOY CAR!!!

Chocolate basket O.O

Stealing my chocolates

Icing :D

 Lol

 Me trying to kill Prince for his prank!! o.o

Salty cake!! D:

So thats it for now. mY B'DAY was full of surprises and I loved it!!! :D

from the heart..

Caution: long post ahead!! >.>

After crying for hours, quarelling with friends, making your bestie angry, Life really seems messed up. Being backstabbed again and again really hurts! Yeah I have been backstabbed again.

We are planning for teachers day and things are getting messed up. Difference have been created between the science section and commerce section. For commerce section money and revenge is more important than friendship. I was already knowing that they can never stand for me. I mean nothing to them. I aint their friend but a formality which needs to be done.

I dont know why did I expected them to be nice with me? On 4th of August, Pranay told me that Kritika asked him to tell me that they have found someone else for photography in cheaper rate so I dont have to do anything bout it!! The only main task i was supposed to do was to arrange a photographer.

I was really hurt.. I didnt talk to saket, manish or anyone. I didnt laugh at the jokes. I felt worthless. Next morning, at school.. I didnt feel like doing anything not even to smile. I told everything to Sushma and Simran and then I burst into tears. I asked sushma not to tell anything to anyone not even tunesh.

I was crying really hard. I guess simran told everything to Saket and tunesh and other guys.. Fortunately, there were not much mates in the class. Saket came to me, tried to stop me from crying but I didnt. He went to commerce class and tried to sort out things but like I said money and revenge is much more important for them. They didnt listen to him.

Saket took quite a big decision. He decided that neither he nor anyone from the science section would be a part of teacher's day celebration. They(commerce section) can do whatever they want with the money. I had never thought that Saket would do anything like that nor my friends.

When my classmates came to know about this they were like "Saket, you can be soo nice? Never thought you would be so!!"

Saket I dont know if I would show this post to you or not but thank you so much for whatever you did. :)) You have been really nice to me since you joined the school. Its been only a year and you are one of my best friends. You never yell at me, You dont get mad at me, You have always been the first person to cheer me up whenever I cry and the thing you did yesterday was really sweet. :)) Be like that forever! I dont regret in being a friend of yours. And yeah your an "angel" wearing a mask of devil ! :D

And plz tu komal, Kritika, divya, pooja, yamini jaise logo ko bhav mat dena! tujhe koi achchi ladki nhi mil sakti kya? :O Line marna hai toh achchi ladkiyo ko mara kar!! :o Ha malum hai tu bolega main kisiko line nahi marta par main itni bhi buddhu nahi hu! xP

Birthday Blast!!

haha! hey Alan ^-^ awww.... man you are 17 now!! You know you are so awesome...haha! you are just like me actually.. its more than  2 months lol but still.. we make smileys and hugs.. I know we have actually started talking now.. You know me more than anyone else.. you may feel weird but yeah.. its true.. I have told you something that no one knows.. Our lives are quiet similar..
Waaaaaahhhaaa.. that day you  and Mark really scared me.. <.< haha! its okay.. lol

Oh well you are crazy!! o.o I really want to see you eating.. haha! that would be so much fun (fast metabolism) lol You are a nice cook..though I you never made me anything <.< haha! Sexy man!! lmao... Oh well your bun bun now doesnt know what else to say :P

I'll miss you Koonook.. you are really sweet.. thanx for being nice with me :) Don't drink too much Coca Cola.. it's bad for you.. coz you always feel sick.. take your medicines in time.. don't expect me to do the same 'cause I wont haha!

Once again a very Happy Birthday Koonook ^-^ By the way.. If I ever get a chance to meet you then I would run to you and mess up your hair..wahahahaha.. so what if I am short.. I can still reach to your hair remember?

*Bun Bun gives you Chocolate cake and Coca Cola cans* o.o

Chocolate Cake and strawberries over it o.o

Coco Cola Cans

enjoy!! ^-^

I just hope that this 17th year of your life brings more happiness.. Keep smiling.. don't forget me.. I will come back after 10 months :P and yeah.. your Bun Bun does not know how to make such lines.. just be happy.. don't cry and yeah.. keep listening to that song! ^-^

*hugs tight*

love ya my bestie

I just hope you like this surprise.. aaahh.. I really didn't know what to do so..I did this.. I use this blog to express what I feel and you know it right?

*pokes you and messess up your hair* :D