"..pages from my dairy.."

6 April 2011


15th day in hostel and I cried few hours back. Not because I miss home or my family. This place is more like home. Uncle and Aunty are really sweet. And Srishti, Anubha and Divya treat me like their little sister. Actually I cried because it's been more than 3 days and Saket is neither replying to my texts nor to my phone calls. I am worried and I feel like may be he or his family has got into some sort of trouble. I cried because I feel like may be he is alone. I hope he is fine and I hope to see him soon.

P.S. Its a sheduled post. I wrote this in my hostel 

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"..nightmare.."

A nightmare haunting my mind,

Waiting for your call and being blind.

I cried a silent tear, 

for this weird fear.

I know you are in trouble,

May be you need me,

But my lips tremble.

I'll hurt you more,

and make your heart sour,

One day you'll know,

that I care,

You will miss me,

But I won't be here..

"..you won't understand.."

It's not that easy as it seems,

Reality is hundred times bitter than dreams,

Thought of loosing someone close to heart,

and the one who has a vital part,

is worse than a nightmare.

I don't really show that I care,

but trust me, only I can understand that pain better.

"..I miss you more.."

Its been a while since I have cried,

and I've lied,

again that I am fine,

Finally I've found the perfect line.

No enmity,

and a weird sanity in me,

Silence and distance assassinating soul,

More weird to see me, trying to discover a prior role,

Not alone anymore but still I miss you more,

Enchanting memories and primitive theories,

playing with my mind every now and then,

Now I wanna fall asleep and never wake up again.

P.S. Its a sheduled post. I wrote this poem a while back in hostel when I was missing Saket. I even cried and no that fool doesn't know that I cried for him! *sigh*

"..you'll never know.."

He had never loved me,

I was being blind,

I am the one who was,

building up dreams new,

reality says no happy hue; 

and now falling apart,

with a broken heart.

Its hard to breath,

suffocating truth,

keeps on hurting.

Ohh it's so sad

you'll never know,

You were something that I never had,

You go on wishing,

I don't know,

where I'm heading. 

But it would be somewhere

you'll never know. 

P.S. sorry I haven't been on lately. I had my board exams and then next day I went to Bhilai. For coaching?!! v.v I had my IIT exams yesterday. And I am going back to hostel again today. Would make some auto post. So my blog wouldn't be dead. Ohh btw I have got some new followers ^_^ Thanks for following me. I'll follow you back.