Choco's blah blah

"..I don't want these scars to heal,

Nor to end this pain,

And untill those wounds remain,

Its going to remind me that

I am not supposed to do the same mistake again.."

"..Face death.."

Terrible life has only pains,

No smile and only vain,

But I do smile,

 for while.

I can't complain,

But why not?

I have already cried a lot,

I feel disgusted,

I feel frustrated,

When everything seems alright,

My mom and dad starts to fight.

I no more like my dear life,

It needs to go away,

to someone who may

lead it in a better way.

I hate you life,

I really do,

Now I have a weird desire to,

choke my breath,

and face death. 

"..I dont feel home.."

I would rather stay in dark than in light,
I just don't fit the bright side,
there is no one to bear my tears.
I'm being haunted by my deepest fears.
And tonight I sound low
I swear I know,
I have tried being strong,
living a nightmare all day long,
And in this tug of war,
when love seems far,
there is no sanity in wining
beneath the silver lining
from those who are my own.
I don't feel home.

"..you and ten thousand souls.."

Its been a while,

And when I look back at time,

You wish it to end after sometime.

Insomia and a bit too much pain,

I know you are broken;

ten thousand souls but still no one.

But I know you are all alone,

I know it hurts,

when emotions bursts.

I know, I love you,

You know, I love you,

Memories haunts you,

and life taunts you.

Emptiness can be thrown away,

Just live life your way.

dreadful nigtmares,

can be healed if once shared. 

A charm lost in crowd,

and mere soul screams loud. 

Let your visions be mine,

Let all of your tears be mine,

Let me whisk you away,

from your doubts and denials,

And also the decent lies,

that you've got in your eyes.

Your name has been with me,

in sun and shower. 

It won't be bitter,

not anymore,

'cause you are the one I truly adore. 

P.S. This song/poem is for Brandon.

Something for Brandon

Hey Brandon! Cheer up my friend. I really can't see you like this. I swear, I really wish if I could borrow all your sorrows. I haven't written in a while so I just hope you like it. And sorry I stole your pic :| You are really nice. And you know? you are one of the amazing people I've met in my life. You are awesome. I want you to be happy. And I really hope you get to see happy days soon. Take care.

"..Bitter and Sweeter.."

Cried my eyes out,

I don't why I still doubt.

There's just a bit too much pain,

May be I'm insane.

So tired of being betrayed,

So tired of being unwanted;

My heart cries, 

and my soul dies.

I wish life was a fairytale,

and everything had a happy end.

And I know,

Reality is bitter,

Only dreams are sweeter.. 

P.S. Yeah I know I am not suppoesed to be here. I have got board exams..but I'm not feeling good these days..a lot of things got messed up..not my exams o.O which ish nice :) Wish me luck.. bye ^_^