"..Just once.."

I want to be an eight year old kiddo again!

I want to sing and dance like an insane..

I want to hug someone right now;

I want to let my tears flow..

I want to be an endear,

I want to disappear;

I want to escape this place,

I want to have a delightful grace;

I want to be alone,

I want to say that my fears are gone;

I want be a muse;

I want to feel the giggling views;

I want to walk alone in lonely streets;

I want to hear my heart beats;

I want to rejoice every moment;

I want to forget the torment;

I want to know if they really care;

I want to know if I really matter;

I want to get stoned;

I want to fall in illusion;

I want to party whole night with my friends,
I want to forget that happy moments soon ends..

I want to fly to the sky,

I want to cry and die,

yes I just want to smile,

from the bottom of my heart;

I don't want that smile to fade,

even if I am dead..

P.S so damn random but yeah from the heart.. feeling sad.. want to meet Alan, Mark, Xin yi and Poxy.. want to hug them tight.. Right now feeling like to die..would be fine I guess.. Crying alot since yesterday.. want to be alone for once.. a thought popped in my mind.. what if I die.. and no one knows about the reason... want someone to regret for what they did!! ummmm.. lame? =/ haha! *hugs tight* byeee :)