"..Questions trapped inside my head.."

I have too many questions trapped inside my head,

I usually try to find the answers while I lay awake in my bed.

I feel blessed with all I have,

And I feel content with everything that He gave.

I feel comfortable in my own skin.

And it doesn't matter much whether  I lose or win.

But then something goes wrong,

And it stays right there for way too long.

And I wonder if I'm alright?

And how to disappear from line of sight?

Why does it all come crashing down when it finally feels fine?

I really want to be happy with this life of mine.

How long will it take to feel alright again?

This time, I'm a bit afraid to commit something insane.