"..If I die..."

I never knew it was you,

and never thought bout my life too.

Just one smile, one touch,

and the world is mine.

You keep trying to do what you want,

I would lie if I have to for you.

So close are my dreams,

dreams are never true.

It's a false hope and false wish,

Sometimes a curse, sometimes a bliss.

Scars on my body is nothing,

but the proof that mephistopheles still exists.

My heart may weep but it won't,

matter you 'cause I don't belong to you.

My eyes need sleep;

I just feel so alone and I wish,

for some sort of venom,

suffocating my life.

Getting mesmerised in your song,

The words seem so personal,

and I am getting vexed of the world.

Sometimes like dimsea, sometimes like drifting clouds;

Trying to drink life from the lees,

and no one see that I'm feeling bad.

I made you cry, and I didn't lie,

A lie that changed my life and,

a truth messed it up.

Will you remember me, if I die?

Need nothing but just few memoirs,

A small part in your heart.

P.S. tummy hurts x__X !! just came to know that ovarian cancer/tumor ish like a silent killer!

P.P.S. yeah I have ovarian tumor/cancer. :/