Choco's blah blah.

Sometimes, when things go wrong, I do cry. I do hate myself and everything around me. But then later, I just tell myself that everything will be alright; 'cause after a hurricane, comes a rainbow. ♥

My life is going to be amazing. I am going to be truly happy. I just have to go with the flow. Nothing can ruin it. I know, I'm gonna have more terrible days but it will not last forever. Everything is temporary.

Existence

I sometimes wonder if people would cry on my absence,

'cause everyday, the past and every useless detail is choking on my existence.

"..My fate's not letting me to die..."

The past crawls like the clouds,

And, the silence screams out loud.

Too much stuffs in my head; useless;

Makes feel like I'm nothing but a mess.

Bounded by the promises that I've made

I just want these memories to fade.

I wanna stay cocooned in my sorrow

And at times, I wanna let it go.

There's no turning back but I don't know where to go.

I wish if everything could freeze,

So I would embrace it all like a cold winter breeze,

Songs make me cry and memories make me sigh,

My fate's not letting me to die.

Choco's blah blah.

I fake a smile and they think I'm rejoicing. 

I laugh and they think everything is alright.

They'll never know how I survived last night.

I've promised and I'll be trying.

No matter how worse things get, I'll be fighting.

"You have really pretty eyes and an adorable smile, you should smile more often."

Sometimes people forget that the prettiest eyes hide the darkest lies and those eyes have shed more tears than any. Same goes with the smile. The saddest person has the most amazing smile. You know when you look into certain people's eye. You'll find a weird glow. The way they glitter is just amusing sometimes. Well, at least I find it amusing but may be that's what you call "sad eyes"? I have been told that I have "sad eyes" and I have know idea what does it mean but, blah, I don't know.. You just feel like the person is sad or something has been eating them up, you know? Well, I don't really look into people's eye anymore 'cause it makes me feel like they'll know everything that I've been hiding and I'll burst into tears.  

Anyways, ta-daa! I'm still alive. Breathing, smiling, laughing, jumping, dancing and singing too.. xD Just in case you are not aware of the fact that I  am in college now. And I cleared my 1st semester. :) Looking forward to 2nd semester and stuffs. 

"..You telling me.."

You telling me that you care,

Won't make me feel loved.

You telling me "everyone is beautiful",

Won't make me pretty.

You telling me that you're moved by my words,

Won't make me feel better.

Happy Birthday Amey! :D

Haha, hi Amey.. xD Happy 19th birthday to you. I hope your days get brighter and you don't have to worry about stuffs and you get almost everything that you want.. ^_^ I really don't know what to say.. o.o You're one of the most nicest people I've ever met. I know that you don't really believe in long distance friendship or whatever but I do.. And I hope that someday you start believing in it too. I'm glad that I met you on twitter. You kinda' know a lot about me and may be I do the same. I'm glad that at least I have someone with who I can talk when I want to(well most of the times).. Umm.. this isn't much but.. this is what I can do to surprise you, I guess. LOL, distance doesn't matter, dumbo! Stay weird forever please.. Stop thinking too much. And, at least reply me on time.. xD

Outburst.

I hate everyone of you who left me, who ignored me, and who added more bitterness in me and my life. I don't need you. I HATE YOU SO MUCH. There's not a single person in my life to count on. I won't care about you anymore. I was living when you were not in my life so I can live again when you're gone. Don't you dare try complaining that I have changed. 'cause now it's all gonna be because of you all.. I don't know why I am writing this here. I don't know why I always believed that people are nice. They are not. They are same everywhere. Everyone is a mean jerk. I guess I'll just burst into tears any moment. This is not a nice feeling. I hate this feeling. What have I done? I don't get it.. I have always been there when you needed me then why are you not here with me? May be I'll regret posting this here. But I just don't care. Someone has truly said, "People come and go but life goes on" 

I will live too. I will have a better life without you. But, tell me, why you didn't stay? Why did you all walk away at the same time? I am literally crying right now. These feelings don't even let me  to sleep. What's wrong with me?

The perfect proportionate.

No amount of coffee, no amount of crying,
No amount of whiskey, no amount of wine.

No more tears and no more fears.

All I want is

 A little bit of this and a little bit of that,

No more hate but only love,

Watching you sleep like a peaceful dove.

Pour me a little bit of your giggle, a little bit of your smile.

'cause this just seems like the perfect proportionate.

P.S. Err, is this a mushy poem? o.O Well, I'm not sure. The first two lines of this poem are not at all mine. It's from the song, "Gotta have you" by "The Weepies" :) I was listening to it and I just couldn't resist those lines. :o It's been so long since I have written a poem like this.. :P So enjoy? :o

P.P.S. I am not in love, okay? :P Don't think too much.. :P