Hidden Secrets of Her Life

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

",,dreams.."

Dreams are just dreams,

Falsifying illusions sometimes

bitter, sometimes sweet.

A curse, a bliss and may be something else

like a wish or a phobia.

Dreams can make you fly

but sometimes dreams too die.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Arghhhh when the hell is it going to end? Now it's been 9 days now... And everyday is such a mess. Why my day starts with tears and ends with tears. Why do I have to pretend that I am so damn happy..and everything is alright. They just make me feel like i'm a crap and nothing else. I'm not scaring anyone over here that I'll end my life. I'm just telling you that I give up now and I can't hold on.. Now, I'm just so scared to smile.. 'cause this smile changes to tears within a while. I am just sick og crying and trying and faking a smile.

Monday, November 1, 2010

"..from the heart.."

Dear someone,
I am trying to seek an answer. If you really care for me then can you please help me out? I wanna know why can't I have just one day where I don't have to fear. One day which should go according to me. Where I don't have any boundation of time; Where I don't have to worry 'bout others and don't have to fake a smile. Just me and my friends and fun! Where I don't have to recieve any calls from mom and dad enquiring where am I? what am I doing? and With who I am!! No one yelling at me when I am with friends and having fun. A day that should never end. Or a day with no regrets, no scars, no pain just bitter sweet silence. I just want to disappear in crowd and don't wanna be found. Atleast then I won't think to end my life!

Wishes

*Wishes* *Wishes* *Wishes*

If wishes come true then..

I wish to live again,

dream which won't end,

smile from the bottom of my heart,

sort out things between me and my mates!

meet someone who really care.

gain love from everyone here.

be the reason for everyone to smile.

be the sweetest girl in the world!

drench in twilight!

sing like no one is listening,

dance like no one is watching,

Hug the rainbows and kiss the moon,

walk like a muse and fly like a bird!

not to be a burden to someone,

not to be betrayed by anyone!

disappear in fantasies!

turn every curse into blessings,

and take every curse as rhyming words,

Pardon someone who has hurt me sometime,

live everyday with no pain and no regrets..

******************

choco's blah blah!!

"..Betrayed hearts just forgot to smile,

they cry and cry till the tears dry.."

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Across the oceans!!

Today 'am smiling ^_^ I have been betrayed again by my another best friend. Its okay atleast I learnt something. It was actually my mistake though 'cause my friends already warned 'bout him and I am regreting for not believing them and believing him. :/ He lied and I believed. I never meant anything to him.

So This ish mark o.o the one who made me smile =]

He is Just so awesome xD

He has got blue-green eyes o.o

A cute smile!! ^^

spiky hair o.o

I'm going to marry his hair you know? xD

Yup, yup spiky hair and black noodles are made for each other! :P (don't use your brain 'cause you won't understand xP)

Chocolates are mean't for me not him! xP

She is Xin Yi!! ^_^

She has awesome hair o.o

and cute eyes

She is super hyper and sweet.

She loves to smile and to make others smile ^_^

She is a super vampire o.o

She is just awesome! :)

She is like my elder sis ^_^

and I love her alot!

Ummm.. I am really happy that Mark and Xin yi are with me ^_^ Who will like to be sad when you have such amazing friends to care for you 24x7 ?

Mark lives in Croatia and Xin Yi in Singapore =] But we text each other, we chat. We all live thousand miles apart across the ocean but someday we'll meet each other for sure! ^^