.....

A dream..may be shattered,

A wish..may be falsifying

A lie..may be of worth

A truth..may be unrevealed

But it doesn't matter anymore

'cause someone knows

they has you to adore

In dark, a blissfull spark
Miles apart two hearts
cries and curses their fate

A false hope of being together
Moist eyes and a mumbling voice
Bitter sweet silence and
an illusion

Daydreams two naive lives
some lies in their eyes
But that doesn't matter
'cause their soul cries..

P.S. can't think of a title coz lots of things are mixed in it even my feelings! >.<
PPS. I am so sorry.. I know I've been away from blogosphere but..nothing seems right..it's making me cry.. I dont know What I am feeling..never felt this before. x(
PPPS. May be I would delete all my accounts..and may be even my blog!
PPPPS. I need a title! :O don't forget about the title for this one! :|

"..Just A wish.."

A wish..just a wish,

that would never come true..

No this feeling ain't new..

Somewhere deep inside my heart..
a voice says..

I just want my friend back,
No one knows my heart aches;

Many Secrets were to be shared,
and confessions were to be made..

The moments when we were together,
I am cherishing it forever..

Smiles and tears in my eye, says,
those enchanting memories can never die..

Your absence in my life matters,

Somewhere  in this pleasing silence my soul shatters..

The allotment of death was so sure;

You died when they found the cure..

I have some fond regrets and a whimpering soul,

My impregnable heart still consoles..

Awards!!

Beautiful blogger award!

from Ayu :)

Thank you sho much Ayu! love ya! xD

And this goes to:

• 
  
  Tristarfivestar
• 
  
  Nipun
• 
  
  Wisewit
• 
  
  Ambiguous angel
• 
  
  Sulagna di
• 
  
  Leo
• 
  
  Juhi
• 
  
  Jingle
• 
  
  Sorcy
• 
  
  Samadrita

Cherry on the top award!

From Nipun :D

Thankiyu so so so much Nipun :D

(I already gave you a chocolate :P)

Now I need to do a tag with the cherry on the top award haha! (doing a tag after ages!! :P)

hmmm.. so according to this tag..I need to tell 3 good things about me...so here I go..

• 
  
  hmmm..I really don't know actually..hmmm..let me see O.o" I stay cool most of the time :D and I take criticism in a healthy way :D
• 
  
  Though I am moody but I never get angry on my besties..coz I love them and don't wanna loose them :D
• 
  
   I am a cry baby..haha but I love that :D
• 
  
  I can give you a second and third chance If you'll betray me..but not more than that!! v.v
• 
  
  I know how to handle creepy fakes and flirts on social sites!! :P
• 
  
  I don't know how to praise myself :P sorry Nipun can't think of anything else..

I know I was supposed to tell 3 good qualities but then Nipun asked me to write as man as I like :D

So here I am done and gonna pass this awards to:

• 
  
  Tharangni
• 
  
  Ayu
• 
  
  Shravan
• 
  
  Rishi
• 
  
  Suruchi
• 
  
  Vittaldas
• 
  
  Garima
• 
  
  Riya
• 
  
  Dudo
• 
  
  Sankoobaba
• 
  
  Abhishek
• 
  
  Madhu
• 
  
  Adreamygal

Enjoy haha! :D

PS. I know..I was awarded with some more awards but sorry I forget T__T

PPS. plz remind me about thOSE AWARDS! :))

PPPS. Hmmm..other bloggers don't worry..I am gonna award and tag you soon :D

"..forbidden love.."

My eyes sinking in tears,

The feeling of coziness and no fears,

Yes I do cry but

Really I don't know why?

Your smile is bliss.

Your care is love.

that luminous expression

and warm admiration..

from that shooting star,

I just wish..

to fall in illusion where,

it's just you and me

forever..

Embracing me in you,

Why's this feeling so deep and new?

My woes are healed..

when you are with me

Listen to those faint echoes,

the delicacy of my heart,

and decent lies in my eyes

accept you no one knows..

Hiding all your fears and tears,

You are always there by my side..

I can't make you smile,

I can't share your pains,

How to tell you that

How much I love and how much I care..

Just a...!

sorry I am gonna write a crap here. x( My head really hurts. I am not sleepy since many days and I am exhausted now. I wanna talk to someone but hell everyone is busy! Now I am almost on all the social sites like Twitter, Myyearbook, Plurk, Myspace and face book. And I hate this!

Fb really shucks!! and the quizes in it too. It says that I am gonna die soon at the age of 16. And I am 16 now!! (Are those quizes real?) Must be not :p but I am asking this 'cause even I feel sometimes that I am gonna die soon. One more thing ARE you guys on Fb AND CAN I ADD YOU PLZ? I don't know anyone except you guys!

argh..this headache is really killing me :( I feel sho scared and I am missing my friends and I don't know why suddenly I'm missing all my friends and school (it's my vaccation) My school would soon get over just one year is left. What would I do then? What about my friends? :( I don't want to leave my friends and today Kamesh send me a txt which makes me feel terrible.

I'm missing Harpreet :(( All those flash backs when we played pranks, When we all had fun in Maths tutions, Fights and drams and everything, Why can't I have my friend back? Why did she die? Why the hell she made that wish?

Why is everyone sho mean? They say that they care but do they really? Why does everyone lies? :( I want to cry. Why I am unable to share my feelings with my friends? And when I write such stuffs do I annoy you?

I am so tired!! And I am unable to blog walk though I am trying to reach your blog..I've become so forgetfull. I am reading  the blogs but then I just forget to leave a comment. -.-"

..I am not happy!..

My eyes spoke the truth,

but they never understood...

I feel so alone,

I feel so lame,

I wish you were here

and this was just a game.

Oh..my fairytale..

why ain't you made it just so well?

I fake a smile and decieve them,

Yes I'm not happy that's what I wanna tell them!

P.S. sorry I don't know what the hell I wrote?

PPS. Right now I'm so angry at someone >.<
PPPS. don't worry I'll be fine!! :)

..My sketches..

Hey..haha! this time I here...with something new xD These are my sketches that I made..

This one was..My first sketch..that I made..

Hmmmm.. I am not good at this..I guess..

and now.. the worst one.. T.T

This is good :)

It's a bit weird ..sorry..!

No.. actually this one was the first one..

Hmmm..need to change something in it..

One of my favourite =]

When I started this blog I thought that it would be only for sketches and drawing and paintings.. but it turned to be a blog about my life :)

I lack all the skills of a good artist.. I know.. but :S

Sorry.. don't have the scanner now.. so I clicked it through my Cell.. and that's why the quality sucks!!  >.<

And I know what are you guys thinking.."Why so sad?" right?

"..Something..." x)

Haha! Guess what..? I am so happy today xD and I wanna go wheeee.... lol

haha! I told you guys I'll be fine... I am just moody and sensitive and nothing else.! At times I do feel sad and then I write blog posts and through that I can express my feelings and thoughts  x))

And I would say it again that I hate social sites xP It makes me sick x(  But Myyearbook is now not that bad like it was earlier xD  Haha! met two nice people there and Both are just like me but one is talkative(always tries to make me smile) :P and the other one isn't(we just make smileys and hugs when we chat)  xD

Haha! thank God they are not like others 'cause everyone flirts there and asks creepy stuffs!!  (ewww...) x( I try to avoid and escape from such creepy creatures xD

Hehehe! last night I slept at 3:30 am xP and Mom caught me xP I am feeling a bit sleepy today :P and hungry! (Haven't taken anything since morning :P) I've got a little headache but its okay x)

Now something for you Guys.. I want to thank you.. you guys are really sweet and I love you x) Thanx for caring so much(talking about the comments on my previous post) xD 

 Don't worry I won't kill myself xP I am scared of blood so I am not going to cut my veins or anything :P I am scared of height and I am hydrophobic so not going to jump from the building or anything neither I'll go close to water :P and Poison.. who's going to buy me that..! I am too lazy to go and buy and what if  it smelled awfull :P and now about drugs, smoking and... and..drinking naahh.. I don't do that..!! :D

haha! okay..so that's all..