"More Random"

Betrayed soul smiles ,

Ruined heart doesn't cry,

Eyes doesn't glitter,

Loneliness never matters,

Fear grew in dark,

Where there's no spark,

Havoc lies in hand,

Life's gonna be same,

Till the end..

"OuT BursT"

I am not happy at all! I hate holidays!I am mising my friends.I just want to shout at someone. We had planned something about these holidays that to ruined!

Everyone went out of station and 'am just sitting in the room and doing nothing. Tunnu, Kam and Nee are not replying to any of the text! I just want to kill Safedi ki chamkar, the most selfish creature in the world. What does she thinks she is? I hate her! During the exams, she asked me help! (obviously cheating) and I did that just to think that she is my pal! But the cruel,selfish creature never told me a single one.

In the exam hall, during the maths exam, she lied that she's going to fail and after coming out, she said these words to Nee"This was the easiest exam I've appeared"!!! Lier!!I hate u! Tragedy Queen, she is selfish too and that boy who was copying my answers but the teacher smacked my head!He didn't even say sorry! I can't understand why the girls are falling for him! I hate all the Arang fellows (group of few students who comes from a small place to our school)

Next day onwards, I didn't tell her any answer! She used me and she always does that. And like a fool I always helped her! Hey this can be my new year resolution,  'am not going to take it any more !

Just a single question hopped in my mind.Why does God always give me such mates in my life to make it terrible? sigh!

Just wondering what she would get by doing all these stuffs to me! Earlier she used to say blah blah about me for having cantact no. of boys (our mates)! And she used to say blah blah blah about the boys too who are my friends!And few days ago she asked me Tunnu and Kam 's (my best buddies) no.! Oh something again struck my mind. After that day Kam and Tunnu are not replying to my text!

Did she say anything to them as she always does this stuff?Naah! They know how she is? They are my true buddies. They are not going to fall for her words!

Chimni has gone mad I guess! How can he fall for Tragedy queen!? And how can he be jealous of Tunnu, Nee and Angel? Tunnu and others are right he has changed. I want to kill him too cause he thinks there something between Me and Angel or Me and Tunesh.so lame!

School is soon going to reopen by 2nd Jan. which means results of Maths exam! I am 200% sure that am going to fail this time. I have never failed in any of the tests or exams before. But this time I am going to fail. T sir is going to insult me very badly. He never misses any chance to insult me!

Last year when I got 75 out of 100 in the halfyearly exams, he had insulted me and said blah blah ! And when I got 93 in Model exam and others didn't even cross 65 He said nothing to any of them!Isn't that lame? If you are in 10th then Model exams are more important than Halfyearly!

I am really scared. I don't know what's going to happen with me? What he's gonna do this time? I never failed in any subject man!Now am feeling like to cry. I know I can't escape this. I want to die. I am feeling terrible. I hate everyone. I hate myself. He's gonna kill me.That's what my life is all about.

"death that is to come.."

Walking towards the long horizon,
To find a new place;

Where one is happy,

In being alone.

Life seems terrible,

With all the pleasures;

Falling in darkness,

Disappered in crowd;

Truth cries in despair,

Living the Nightmare, every moment;

Lost smile peeping seldomly,

Shutting the doors for joy;

Heart sinkin' in Memoirs,

Tired eyes Starin' the haunted one;

The brave soul is not scared of,
the death that is to come..

Yay!!!!

Hey Everyone!! Guess what?? I won an award and also have been tagged. This time it is from shravan :)

Thank you shravan! I am really glad. Now here comes tag no.1. it is same as the previous one. I have to tell 7 things about me which are unknown to other bloggers. So here I go..

Tag 1
1. I am not the only child to my parents. I have a younger brother. Actually we were three but the youngest one died of brain tumor when he was only of four months :(

2. I really love being pampered (phew! I spelled it right)
3. I never went out of Chhattisgarh!! Since my birth I never got a chance to go to a different place other than the places of chhattisgarh(I didn't even travelled in train)
4. I really hate people who abuse; so my pals never abuse when I am with them. :)
5. I have started liking Emo stuffs!! Don't know why!?
6. According to my pals, I am extremely innocent and they say that the outer world would kill me.
7. I hate socialising. Seriously, I am not at all interested in meeting new people; not even my relatives!

According to the rules,Mine is over.. now its your turn so 'am passing it to-

Vittaldas prabhu
Sorcerer
Rahil
Ayu
Sankoo baba
Rishi
Vidya
Krazyy komplex kitten

Tag 2
1. What is your current obsession? Chemistry and Chocolates!

2. What are you wearing today? a green top and blue capry.
3. What’s for dinner? its Potatoes !!!
4. What’s the last thing you bought? Airtel recharge voucher!!
5. What are you listening to right now? I gotta find you by jonas brothers
6. What do you think about the person who tagged you? well the person's Shravan.....He's really nice and talented :)
7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be? Raipur, Chhattisgarh!
8. What are your must-have pieces for summer? AC !!!
9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go? Kolkata, Mumbai, Delhi, Malaysia, Switzerland !!!!!!
10. Which language do you want to learn? Bengali, French, Spanish!!.
11. What’s your favorite quote? No special ones!
12. Who do you want to meet right now? Pishi, Kaku, Kaki Ma, Tamma, Chayan da and Chaitanya da and Rumpa bodi..
13. What is your favorite color? Black, Blue, Purple and green.
14. Give us 3 styling tips that works for you:Eat Chocolates! Chocolates! and Chocolates!
15. What is your dream job? A Fashion designer or an Engineer
16. What’s your favorite magazine? My school and class magzine!!!!
17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on? Hmmm.. I would save it for a guitar
18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas? wearing eye-catchy yet simply dresses....
19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon? hmmmm....Amitabh Bachchan
20. What kind of haircut do you prefer? Long Hair
21. What are you going to do after this?  browse the net or text my pals or sleep!!
22. What are your favourite movies? It's there in my profile!
23. What inspires you? My Friends
24. What does your friends call you most commonly?Machali, lovely,shri, siya, without license...
25. Would you prefer coffee or tea? coffee
26. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed? I'll cry and scribble something Or write I hate you in my desk Or listen to music and stare the road...
27. What makes you go wild? Speed and height!
28. Which other blogs do you love visiting?The blogs which I follow..
29. Favorite Dessert/Sweet? Ice-Creams, Chocolates
30.How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?Dashboard, My blog and shravan's blog!
31. Favorite Season? Winter...
32. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me? Whatever you like..
33. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you? Ignore Them!
34. What are you afraid of the most? Drowning, height, insects including dragon flies and butterflies!
35. What's the first you do once you have booted the system? Nothing cause my younger bro does that ;p
36. What brings you smile on your face instantly? Many things! 

Rules for those who are tagged:

Respond and rework – answer these questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own, and add one more question to the list. Then tag eight or ten other new set of people

•   Ayu
• Vittaldas Prabhu
• Tristarfivestar
• Amnn
• Orange
• Sorcerer
• Ravi
• Riddhi
• Vidya
• Sankoo baba

"Unspoken Christmas tale"

She was in 8th standard and he was in 10th standard.She was cute and had a sweet smile and curly hairs and beautiful eyes. He was tall and used to get dimples whenever he smiled. He was really kind hearted. The day when they saw each other, they felt something but they didn't say anything. As the time passed, there feelings for each other also grew. They never talked to each other neither they told this to anyone. 

Their eyes talked whenever it met. Within few moments their eyes shared many things. Most of the times as he looked her, she looked down to shy. They never accepted the fact that they really love each other.

Coincidently they met in many places but they never talked.. they both either looked into each other's eyes or else pretended to be strangers. They always tried to find each others face in the crowd.

When she was in 9th and he in 11th, They had a fancy faire in their school where they got a chance to work together with a group. There too they helped each other secretly. They tried to talk but some strange Reasons always stopped them.
On the same day, He found her crying in one of the classroom as he and his pals were checking the rooms. He didn't want to get inside the room 'cause his friends were with him but he did. He asked one of his pal to  inform her friends about it. Her friends went hurriedly towards the room to meet her.

She had red marks on her face and hands and was scared.. She didn't even look at anyone.He asked her"Who did this to you?" She yelled "I am fed up!! I am really tired.. I..I can't.. tolerate this anymore.. He asked again "What happened?" She replied in a shaky tone"They want me to be with them..they would throw me out of the school  if I don't do what they are asking me to do?"

He and her friends asked in reckless anger"Who are they? tell us their names.." She looked in his eyes and said"They are your mates!" He grew more reckless and asked her friends to stay with her and then he went to his class where his mates were proudly celebrating on their deeds.He just smacked them and told this to the authorities.

After these incident they became close friends. They still loved each other but didn't accept.Their friends asked both of them to speak out their feelings but they didn't.

By the time they realised their feelings, it was too late. Now he had to leave the school and place coz he had completed his 10+2 and his dad had been transferred to a new place. And may be he would never come back..

But He came.. he came back for her..It was Christmas eve; She was standing near the sea shore and was staring the choppy sea. He came closer but she didn't realise. He whispered in her ear" Merry Christmas".She turned back and hugged him. She was crying. He asked"Hey! What happened?" She answered"I really love you". "I love you too" he said and took her in his arms.They both walked along the shore and chatted whole night.

They both were knowing that He has to leave for home but this time they both were happy 'cause now they both would be together forever.

[P.S. Just tried to write  a fiction..Do comment on this and really sorry for the pathetic english ;) Oh damn! it's not good! sorry!  :( anyways Merry Christmas everyone(^_^)]

"Broken heart"

Betrayed by fate,
Ruined long ago,
Only left to,
Keep those,
Enchanting and,
Nostalgic memories that,

Hurts,
Every moment,
And adds more,
Rage,
Till life comes to an end.

"He came.."

He was badly hurt,

When he saw her shattered.

His soul cried,

When she was alone.

He grew reckless,

When she was hurt.

He stayed in pain,

When she cried.

He came in her life,

To make her smile.

He came in her life,

To steal all her sorrows.

He came in her life,

To protect her from the demon.

He came in her life,

To teach her the living grace.

He came in her life,

'Cause he loves her a lot..

No one knows..

No one knows,

Life is waitng for her,

But she wants to stay in despair;

No one knows,

Her soul wants to cry,

When she smiles;

No one knows,

Her eyes glitter,

When she is sad;

No one knows,

She shares her uniqueness,

And Has shattered soul;

No one knows,

She finds pleasures,

In betrayal;

No one knows,

Her tears says everything,

And her silence is golden speech;

No one knows,

Her heart is broken;

No one..